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Hey!
Decided to not just use my website. I apparently can't make up my mind. Anyways. Will use that for funny/professional shit, and use this for all my personal stuff. So you can still find stuff at www.unhappyfish.com if you want, but otherwise I'll be here.
Just wanted to rant for a little. Will CUT it for all you peeps who don't care.
So, I've been doing a whole ton of introspection recently. Over the last six months or so, I've worked on trying to rebuild bridges with people I may have hurt early on in my life. Since two years ago, I've made a deal with myself not to hold grudges, and this seems like a natural step. The problem I'm having is I seem to not stop caring or thinking about people. Is this weird?
In going through it all, my first real boyfriend and my first big interest are people I still really care about, and think about probably at least weekly. I see all sorts of people getting over and moving on from people, and have to wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I still function and do fine, but I never feel like the caring really goes away. I've been really lucky in that most the people I've talked to have been very kind and forgiving, but I just wonder if this is really all that unusual.
I have to say, other than this, my life is going well. I probably have more friendships now than I have at any point in my life, and they just keep building. I still don't really have a 'boyfriend' per se, but I've got a lot of people I care about, and don't feel quite as awkward about not having one anymore. I feel a lot more confident about myself on this front, anyways. I'm very picky, and cool with that. :)
Ok, /rant off. So, if you see me around more in the mornings (AIM, Taps, all that) it's because I got a job at UK's library in the A/V department. 8 am to noon-thirty, m-w-f. I <3 it. Hardly any work, lots of studying and hanging out talking to people. The people I work with are hilarious, as well.
Decided to not just use my website. I apparently can't make up my mind. Anyways. Will use that for funny/professional shit, and use this for all my personal stuff. So you can still find stuff at www.unhappyfish.com if you want, but otherwise I'll be here.
Just wanted to rant for a little. Will CUT it for all you peeps who don't care.
So, I've been doing a whole ton of introspection recently. Over the last six months or so, I've worked on trying to rebuild bridges with people I may have hurt early on in my life. Since two years ago, I've made a deal with myself not to hold grudges, and this seems like a natural step. The problem I'm having is I seem to not stop caring or thinking about people. Is this weird?
In going through it all, my first real boyfriend and my first big interest are people I still really care about, and think about probably at least weekly. I see all sorts of people getting over and moving on from people, and have to wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I still function and do fine, but I never feel like the caring really goes away. I've been really lucky in that most the people I've talked to have been very kind and forgiving, but I just wonder if this is really all that unusual.
I have to say, other than this, my life is going well. I probably have more friendships now than I have at any point in my life, and they just keep building. I still don't really have a 'boyfriend' per se, but I've got a lot of people I care about, and don't feel quite as awkward about not having one anymore. I feel a lot more confident about myself on this front, anyways. I'm very picky, and cool with that. :)
Ok, /rant off. So, if you see me around more in the mornings (AIM, Taps, all that) it's because I got a job at UK's library in the A/V department. 8 am to noon-thirty, m-w-f. I <3 it. Hardly any work, lots of studying and hanging out talking to people. The people I work with are hilarious, as well.