it's sinking in...
The solitude to come is starting to sink in... I got an apartment set up... just need to sign the lease now... and pay the first rent and a few odds and ends..
The feeling of loneliness at being single is starting to sink in as well... right on schedule... I miss Alli... I knew I would... and it was the right thing to happen... and we made the right choice in the long run..... still... I do miss her.
Unia is a good album.. not there best..but good enough... Nothing spectacular on it that stands out to me honestly... the meter seems off in a lot of places. James.. I need a new copy of the Song "For the Sake of Revenge".. the copy you gave me has some weird.. fuzziness to it.. It might be the song.. but I think it might be a bad encode..
With all the recent changes that are out of my hands... many... I took some into my hands... at least I have some control of the changes happening right now...
This is going to be a lonely summer... Ryan is gone.. perminently... Scott moves out the 15th.. and I move into my New place the 26th... Anthony is slated to join the Air Force... The rest of my peeps and Homies are... gone... JD is all that remains.. (expect more of me in the coming time...)...
I had some endeavors slated.. but they are falling through... no surprise... I fear I get to be single till at least school starts up and I can be exposed to new people...
Saw Ica at Ben's grad party.. it was good to see her... I've been working to re-establish ties with her.. and it looks to be working... the old networks are reforming... and should be restored somewhat when I return to San Jose..
So I'm going to focus on my Psych degree and my GE's.. and put aside CS... and graduate from SSU with my psych degree next year.. with luck... and then get my CS degree from San Jose State... There is no future for me in Sonoma County... So the second I graduate.. I'm out of her... permanently... Even outside of school.. more and more.. I realize my life.. and future is in San Jose... that's where Computer Science is... That's where my social life is leading me back to... Ryan and Nick.. and others.. that's proly were I'm going to find what I need.. "In the end.. return to the beginning..."
But for now... I seem to be succumbing to loneliness again...
And that's the end of that...
The feeling of loneliness at being single is starting to sink in as well... right on schedule... I miss Alli... I knew I would... and it was the right thing to happen... and we made the right choice in the long run..... still... I do miss her.
Unia is a good album.. not there best..but good enough... Nothing spectacular on it that stands out to me honestly... the meter seems off in a lot of places. James.. I need a new copy of the Song "For the Sake of Revenge".. the copy you gave me has some weird.. fuzziness to it.. It might be the song.. but I think it might be a bad encode..
With all the recent changes that are out of my hands... many... I took some into my hands... at least I have some control of the changes happening right now...
This is going to be a lonely summer... Ryan is gone.. perminently... Scott moves out the 15th.. and I move into my New place the 26th... Anthony is slated to join the Air Force... The rest of my peeps and Homies are... gone... JD is all that remains.. (expect more of me in the coming time...)...
I had some endeavors slated.. but they are falling through... no surprise... I fear I get to be single till at least school starts up and I can be exposed to new people...
Saw Ica at Ben's grad party.. it was good to see her... I've been working to re-establish ties with her.. and it looks to be working... the old networks are reforming... and should be restored somewhat when I return to San Jose..
So I'm going to focus on my Psych degree and my GE's.. and put aside CS... and graduate from SSU with my psych degree next year.. with luck... and then get my CS degree from San Jose State... There is no future for me in Sonoma County... So the second I graduate.. I'm out of her... permanently... Even outside of school.. more and more.. I realize my life.. and future is in San Jose... that's where Computer Science is... That's where my social life is leading me back to... Ryan and Nick.. and others.. that's proly were I'm going to find what I need.. "In the end.. return to the beginning..."
But for now... I seem to be succumbing to loneliness again...
And that's the end of that...