Graduation, You're Breaking My Heart!

May 26, 2005 22:34

Wow, it's been over a month since I updated but I had so much to express that I had to start back up.

Let's see. I went to the midnight screening of Star Wars Episode III Revenge of the Sith with many people, including the following:

Kerrie
Laura
Mike
Vasili
Blake
Derek
Zack

It was awesome. A few of us watched Team America beforehand which Laura got me for my birthday. We got to the movies around 9:30 and had some interesting and fun conversations beforehand. The movie was awesome. By far the best movie I have ever seen. It was so emotional while including aspects of action and humor, regardless of some of the corny dialogue. (General Grievous's "Time to abandon ship" line stands out the most. It was so good that me and Zak saw it two more times over the weekend. If you haven't seen it yet, go already. You don't know what you're missing.

Well, now I get to the more emotional part. The last day of high school ever is tomorrow. I don't know what to think. Twelve years of this and they have been so amazing. I'm going to miss a lot of people. It's hard to know that I will never see some again. There are so many people I stopped talking to that I wish I didn't and so many people I didn't meet that I wish I did. Graduation is so bitter sweet. School is over, and yet school is over. College is next, and I don't really enjoy looking to the future. There are aspects of it I never want to come to. Seriously, if you haven't met me yet say hi at the Senior Picnic tomorrow, I'd like to leave school knowing some of the people I never talked to :p

Wow, these 2 weeks have been full of emotional lasts. The last Star Wars ever and the last high school time ever. The future is coming fast and I'm not sure I'm ready. I have so much stuff going for me and yet I can't look at myself in a positive light. My self consciousness keeps me from many things. I find way to many faults in myself that I wish I would just let go of. I can't be perfect, but I feel like a loser when I can't be as good as some other people or go down the normal path of life. I have to do things differently, and it sometimes hurts. But oh well, such is life. Pain is part of it.

Anyways, see you guys at the picnic tomorrow. It's the last day, let's enjoy it!

Oh Yeah, Bear of the Month time!!



Until next time,

Mikey
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