[::lawd help me::]
ok..i know i aint hit da journal up in while but i jus been goin through some thangz! ok yea my birthday came and its gon...i really aint do shit but get extremely throwed. i had a ounce, rina had a ounce, tee had a half ounce....lawd! den i bought 2 bottles of dat hyp...0k DeN!! we was on dat gin..had a couple hulk! i was so ova wit. ion even feel 18 fa real fa real ::shrugs:: anyway....granny is back in tha hospital...AGAIN this time she was throwin up hella hella blood and shittin it out...LORD!! help us please. i promise when i saw her throw up all that blood i jus wanted to cry. she say she aint in any pain or nothin and she feel ok, jus a lil weak. today they gave her o6 bags of blood. smh...i jus wish she'd hurry up and get well cuz ion know how much more me and my moms can take this. tha doctor say she got like a cis [howeva you spell it] inside her stomach but they aint sure was causin tha bleeding. she may haft to have surgery to see where tha blood is comin from...ion know.. i jus hope she be ok. i cant jus feel myself fallin into depression. i hate this shit. me and darvin strugglin...i feel so bad..i called him another dude name while..well ya'll know...Oo0ps. i mean i love darvin but my heart aint wit him. i need to jus stick to what i have and be thankful, cuz the person my heart is wit is jus....::sighs:: i aint even got no words fa him...well im finna smoke a blunt wit da moms....adios