All day I've sort of felt like a vampire with my emotions switched off.
No lie. I thought I would feel anxious (remember the S3 finale? I was a FUCKING NERVOUS WRECK ALL DAMN DAY BEFORE THAT ONE AIRED), or just sad, SOMETHING.
But literally, all day, when I would think of it, I could conjure NOTHING.
I decided I was resigned. But it was still strange to be without any emotion through this whole thing.
Driving home, I started to feel a bit emotional, but nothing too bad. Nothing like other times I've nearly lost my mind over this show.
The place I download from so that I don't have to wait until 8pm West Coast time to watch was not working well, and I ended up having to watch it the old-fashioned way: on my TV. So I texted a little bit with a friend while I was reading spoilers on tumblr. Something I saw said Damon flipped his switch, which I believed entirely, and felt very sad/mad/unsure about...and then I remembered I wasn't going to watch the show anymore, so it really didn't matter.
About halfway through the show, I tweeted a series of tweets to Julie Plec and Caroline Dries. They read as follows:
On a show EP'd by women, a pregnant woman&her kickass little sister are dead @julieplec @carolinedries
While your LEAD actress is in a sleeping beauty coma @julieplec @carolinedries
And Bonnie becomes yet another pawn in a man made chess game @julieplec @carolinedries
Way to go feminism @julieplec @carolinedries thanks for making it easy to walk away from this show
I'M NOT EVEN A FEMINIST.
LOL.
Anyway, here's what I'll say: it was a beautiful way to end the show on a completely tragic note. I have no desire to watch it anymore. I'll probably have more thoughts in the days to come as I rewatch it. All the individual character things worked for me and made sense, and I really loved Stefan describing his relationship with Caroline (and Damon and Elena's relationship) while they shared their final moments together in a schmaltzy way. It didn't bother me because Damon's the most romantic sap in all of vampire lore, a dance with his girl is exactly how he'd spend that time. All he ever wanted was to hold her hand and have her love him, and she did.
She does.
She always will.
I started this journey with them in the fall of 2010, and I end it here, canonically speaking, in the spring of 2015. I will spend my summer writing some kind of tribute to them, and then I'm done.
Nina might even George Clooney her way into an eventual series finale (or if and when Ian ever walks away from the show)...but I don't even know if that can tempt me. I might watch stuff on YouTube, but I don't care to watch Lily terrorize her sons, or bond with Enzo, and I don't care about Stefan and Caroline enough to tune in for them. And I don't want to see Damon without Elena, nor Bonnie, nor Matt.
And I cried through all those scenes, particularly the Bonnie and Damon ones, but I am at peace about the whole thing. I really thought this would be a louder ka-BOOM type break up, but instead it's a gentle, hands-on-the-casket bu-bye.
Thanks for the memories.
But literally, all day, when I would think of it, I could conjure NOTHING.
I decided I was resigned. But it was still strange to be without any emotion through this whole thing.
Driving home, I started to feel a bit emotional, but nothing too bad. Nothing like other times I've nearly lost my mind over this show.
The place I download from so that I don't have to wait until 8pm West Coast time to watch was not working well, and I ended up having to watch it the old-fashioned way: on my TV. So I texted a little bit with a friend while I was reading spoilers on tumblr. Something I saw said Damon flipped his switch, which I believed entirely, and felt very sad/mad/unsure about...and then I remembered I wasn't going to watch the show anymore, so it really didn't matter.
About halfway through the show, I tweeted a series of tweets to Julie Plec and Caroline Dries. They read as follows:
On a show EP'd by women, a pregnant woman&her kickass little sister are dead @julieplec @carolinedries
While your LEAD actress is in a sleeping beauty coma @julieplec @carolinedries
And Bonnie becomes yet another pawn in a man made chess game @julieplec @carolinedries
Way to go feminism @julieplec @carolinedries thanks for making it easy to walk away from this show
I'M NOT EVEN A FEMINIST.
LOL.
Anyway, here's what I'll say: it was a beautiful way to end the show on a completely tragic note. I have no desire to watch it anymore. I'll probably have more thoughts in the days to come as I rewatch it. All the individual character things worked for me and made sense, and I really loved Stefan describing his relationship with Caroline (and Damon and Elena's relationship) while they shared their final moments together in a schmaltzy way. It didn't bother me because Damon's the most romantic sap in all of vampire lore, a dance with his girl is exactly how he'd spend that time. All he ever wanted was to hold her hand and have her love him, and she did.
She does.
She always will.
I started this journey with them in the fall of 2010, and I end it here, canonically speaking, in the spring of 2015. I will spend my summer writing some kind of tribute to them, and then I'm done.
Nina might even George Clooney her way into an eventual series finale (or if and when Ian ever walks away from the show)...but I don't even know if that can tempt me. I might watch stuff on YouTube, but I don't care to watch Lily terrorize her sons, or bond with Enzo, and I don't care about Stefan and Caroline enough to tune in for them. And I don't want to see Damon without Elena, nor Bonnie, nor Matt.
And I cried through all those scenes, particularly the Bonnie and Damon ones, but I am at peace about the whole thing. I really thought this would be a louder ka-BOOM type break up, but instead it's a gentle, hands-on-the-casket bu-bye.
Thanks for the memories.