i'm a believer...........
there are lots of things in life that amaze me. the human brain and how it works, the human soul, the ability of my friends to always say the right thing to make me feel better, this weird thing that makes people seem to tell me everything about them, except their names and fate.
today started off pretty normal, until rachelle left, then andy woke up and went on a one hour rant about how stupid and worthless i am. so by about ten o'clock i was feeling pretty crappy. i decided to go to the mall and apply for a whole bunch of jobs. by the time i got home i was still feeling pretty crappy. then andy went on another rant about the same things and so i stormed out and decided to go to the gym.
as i'm walking and feeling pretty sorry for myself again, i stopped to pet this old lady's dog. its name was Charlie, he was two years old. She got him two years ago after her last dog Chance died. As we started walking she told me about her daughter, who died thrity-six years ago at the age of nine. she had heart problems and during an opperation on may 6 she died. the lady said it was so sad because she had just turned nine, her birthday was march 31, the day before mine.
we kept walking and i told her that i had a friend die at the age of nine named ryan (who andy was making fun of today) and we talked about how sad it is to lose someone so young.
then she told me that seven years ago her oldest son commited suicide, it was one week before his thirty-fifth birthday. she said he never fully got over losing his little sister. she talked about how hard it is to be the one left, how its easy for the person to but its hell for the people left. i told her i understood.
when i got to the club all i could think about was this amazing lady and everything she had been thru. she had also told me during the walk about her friend that was just recovering from cancer.
what amazed me most was how fate always has a way of popping up at random times, just to prove to you that its still here. fate always has a way of showing you that no matter how bad you think things are going, they will get better. no matter how stuck or bored you feel, there will always be something that will come and unstick you. you've just gotta wait.
some of the other people that i met today, was a man at the gym who told me about how he was trying really hard to get his life on the right path again by working out and eatting right. he said he was sick of being such a big guy and wanted a change.
i'm still loving the new cd i bought, my fav line that i think works in this whole thing very well is "you gotta live where you are". i love fate. and lime lip gloss.....
today started off pretty normal, until rachelle left, then andy woke up and went on a one hour rant about how stupid and worthless i am. so by about ten o'clock i was feeling pretty crappy. i decided to go to the mall and apply for a whole bunch of jobs. by the time i got home i was still feeling pretty crappy. then andy went on another rant about the same things and so i stormed out and decided to go to the gym.
as i'm walking and feeling pretty sorry for myself again, i stopped to pet this old lady's dog. its name was Charlie, he was two years old. She got him two years ago after her last dog Chance died. As we started walking she told me about her daughter, who died thrity-six years ago at the age of nine. she had heart problems and during an opperation on may 6 she died. the lady said it was so sad because she had just turned nine, her birthday was march 31, the day before mine.
we kept walking and i told her that i had a friend die at the age of nine named ryan (who andy was making fun of today) and we talked about how sad it is to lose someone so young.
then she told me that seven years ago her oldest son commited suicide, it was one week before his thirty-fifth birthday. she said he never fully got over losing his little sister. she talked about how hard it is to be the one left, how its easy for the person to but its hell for the people left. i told her i understood.
when i got to the club all i could think about was this amazing lady and everything she had been thru. she had also told me during the walk about her friend that was just recovering from cancer.
what amazed me most was how fate always has a way of popping up at random times, just to prove to you that its still here. fate always has a way of showing you that no matter how bad you think things are going, they will get better. no matter how stuck or bored you feel, there will always be something that will come and unstick you. you've just gotta wait.
some of the other people that i met today, was a man at the gym who told me about how he was trying really hard to get his life on the right path again by working out and eatting right. he said he was sick of being such a big guy and wanted a change.
i'm still loving the new cd i bought, my fav line that i think works in this whole thing very well is "you gotta live where you are". i love fate. and lime lip gloss.....