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[badbanana]

this year has just been a soap opera.

and i just love it. everything's going wrong and i love it. 
history just repeats and repeats and repeats.
i'd be really annoyed, but its not the same
it repeat through different people each time.

somehow with every single person i'm around, there has to be something i can't stand.
sometimes, its breath.
sometimes, its the laugh.
sometimes, its the crankiness
sometimes, its just the person's mere presence

you dont know who you are
you're trying to understand what i'm talking about
its not your fault. it's me. i'm fucked.
i shouldnt be blaming you
but here i am. hating you for something you never did
not conciously, at least. 
i'm not sorry, but i should be. 
so forgive me... or not. i couldnt care less.

like i said, it's history repeating. 
and my fist is taking all the blows.

its swollen again.. and like i said, i love it
i can't wait til april first
my life will begin again
at least i hope it will. 
thats all i have to look forward to now. 
and its not even because of my so-called "best friends"
its because i can reclaim my territory 
something you unconciously conquered.