Dec 07, 2004 09:45
Jennifer left today but I wasn't that upset about it. I mean I will miss her, but she went away the way that she wanted to go, in her sleep. There was no pain, no long struggle with disease, no painful accidents or shameful circumstances. She was here in the evening and gone in the morning. Easy, the way she wanted it.
It would be against her wishes for me to mourn her passing. Her greatest fear was that when she was gone people would waste their time remembering hers. "Why care about the dead?" She would say. "Get on with YOUR life and forget about theirs."
Jennifer believed that when she died she would become one with the universe. She believed that everything in existence is all part of God. We are God and God is us. When we die we merely rejoin fully with God.
She didn't believe in time either. She always claimed that time was impossible, it was only an illusion that we created to make television scheduling easier. In her mind, everything is happening simultaneously. "Past", "present", and "future", are all really the same thing, and could be travelled if we only knew how to change our perceptions.
I will do my best to forget Jennifer, cause I know thats what she wants. But anytime I see someone laughing it will be hard not to remember her. Jennifer was always laughing, it was almost a second language to her. A lot of it might have to do with the fact that she had the most ticklish feet in the universe.