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[badbaddluck907]

Ive been keeping this to myself
Since the last time I saw you
Holding cards that were dealt
Listening to things untrue
I need to hear your voice
I need you to kiss my head
But this was your choice
And I'm the one who's dead

Nobody knows because I cant show them how
How badly this needs to come off my chest
Nobody knows because I can't show them how
How no matter what I'm not at rest

Maybe I shouldn't be angry
But I just can't help this
Im so lifeless and empty
I am unwilling to forget
You're supposed to be here
I dont want it to be your fault
I dont want to see your tears
But you put my life on hault

Nobody knows because I cant show them how
How badly this needs to come off my chest
Nobody knows because I can't show them how
How no matter what I'm not at rest

Im trying to keep on going
But you are a part of me
I'm so blind for not knowing
It no longer matters to me
Is this a lesson to be taught?
Theres got to be another way
All the times we fought
I know all that you say

you did the best
you did the best you could
now i do know
now i do know what i should
This has to be
This has to be one bad joke
I will erase
I will erase this like what i wrote

I wish you knew the things you know now
There had to be another way
I need you to come show me how
Please tell me it'll be okay