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OMFG
sometimes i just wish i would die
but i probably shouldnt
there's so many good things in life
especially the ppl
but so far in my life...
i live
i love
i hate
i regret
there are so many things i wish i could change
like the way ive treated ppl
like the way ive treated Marley
jasmine
sam
and so many other ppl
ive told Marley i loved him
then i went and made out with other ppl
i really regret that
he doesnt trust me
he doesnt like me
he doesnt even want to be my friend at the least
i need himmmm
i want to be with him
but i cant
cuz he doesnt feel the same way about me
as i feel about him
i miss it
when he was with me most of the night
at narrows
i wanted to be there
i liked being there
i still want to be there
but oh well
too late
i missed my chance
life sux
if only there was no such thing as love
at LEAST
then i would be alot happier person
i would have fun
i would laugh and mean it
i wouldnt have so much pain simply from this one reason...
i just hope everything works out a little at least
i would be alot better if we were even just friends
but oh well
today it made me happy just to know marleye was there
i said that if he even just said one thing then i would leave him alone as long as he wants
so he said bye. i said bye back and havent said anything to him since then
and just to make him happy im gonna keep to that
im not gonna speak unless spoken to
so im pretty bored and depressed right now
i hate it
so im gonna go now.
bye
~*~HEATHER_baby*