FM January - Have you ever taken advantage of anyone? Talk about why you did it.
I wouldn't call it taking advantage, per se. Okay, so maybe I drained what was essentially the life force of two people who didn't really say I could. But it wasn't like I drained it permanently. Borrow is a better word, I think. Yeah. I borrow their...life force.
Buffy was in trouble. She needed my help. She'd gone dimension hopping on us and no one really knew where she went or how to get her back. So I was trying to open it back up. The portal, that is. But it was too big for me to do alone, and I was a little out of practice anyway. And I didn't mean to, you know, steal it. Their essences. Kennedy and Anya's. It was just pulling at me, and I was right there. It was almost open but it wasn't going to budge all the way just 'cause I got all sassy with the mighty forces.
I needed them. I needed Kennedy most of all since she was the most powerful person in the vicinty. So I just took. And I guess it was an advantage because it worked, didn't it? I channeled their energies through my own conduit and the portal opened. Just like that. Xander pulled me back, and out of the circle before I went too far and they exchanged the demon that came through the first time for Buffy. Everyone lived, Buffy got the information she needed, and I got back on the horse so to speak.
It caused some friction between me and Kennedy, but I needed her to see that part of me. It's one thing to hear about it, another thing entirely to actually experience it. Guess I needed to know she could handle black eyed scary me. She seemed pretty shaken up about it at first but I think we were better off for it happening that way. I think it even helped her, when she had to be my anchor for the big turn-the-Potentials-into-real-Slayers spell. Also? I knew that she could handle black-eyed scary me. Which is essential to any relationship I'm ever gonna have.
It's like, you know, 'hey, if I ever go a little too far, lose my mind, sprout black hair and try to end the world again, is that a deal breaker for you?' And if it's not, then okay. But if it is, we're not really going to work out so well.
Speaking of Kennedy, I was surprised and maybe a little hurt that I hadn't heard back from her yet. I'd texted her, as soon as I got to L.A. And when she didn't answer that, I got a little braver and even called. But I got her voicemail. It was okay, if things were still a little weird between us and she didn't want to see me right now. Or ever. I just wished she would tell me, if that's what this was.
Then all of a sudden yesterday, she texted back. I guess she's just been busy. It happens. There's probably a whole new apocalypse going on that I don't know about. I'm more out of the loop than I realized.
We agreed to meet for lunch. I suggested the Olive Garden, due to her love of all foods Italian, and she said she'd meet me there at 2. I had to admit, I was really nervous. But also really excited to see her again. I missed her so much. Even more now that we were in the same city and I thought about that each night when I sat out on my balcony, wondering if any of the sparkling lights beneath me were hers. I hoped that it was okay. That I was allowed to miss her. 'Cause even if it wasn't? I still did. It was just one more thing she'd have to accept, not unlike the magick.
((Kennedy...))
Buffy was in trouble. She needed my help. She'd gone dimension hopping on us and no one really knew where she went or how to get her back. So I was trying to open it back up. The portal, that is. But it was too big for me to do alone, and I was a little out of practice anyway. And I didn't mean to, you know, steal it. Their essences. Kennedy and Anya's. It was just pulling at me, and I was right there. It was almost open but it wasn't going to budge all the way just 'cause I got all sassy with the mighty forces.
I needed them. I needed Kennedy most of all since she was the most powerful person in the vicinty. So I just took. And I guess it was an advantage because it worked, didn't it? I channeled their energies through my own conduit and the portal opened. Just like that. Xander pulled me back, and out of the circle before I went too far and they exchanged the demon that came through the first time for Buffy. Everyone lived, Buffy got the information she needed, and I got back on the horse so to speak.
It caused some friction between me and Kennedy, but I needed her to see that part of me. It's one thing to hear about it, another thing entirely to actually experience it. Guess I needed to know she could handle black eyed scary me. She seemed pretty shaken up about it at first but I think we were better off for it happening that way. I think it even helped her, when she had to be my anchor for the big turn-the-Potentials-into-real-Slayers spell. Also? I knew that she could handle black-eyed scary me. Which is essential to any relationship I'm ever gonna have.
It's like, you know, 'hey, if I ever go a little too far, lose my mind, sprout black hair and try to end the world again, is that a deal breaker for you?' And if it's not, then okay. But if it is, we're not really going to work out so well.
Speaking of Kennedy, I was surprised and maybe a little hurt that I hadn't heard back from her yet. I'd texted her, as soon as I got to L.A. And when she didn't answer that, I got a little braver and even called. But I got her voicemail. It was okay, if things were still a little weird between us and she didn't want to see me right now. Or ever. I just wished she would tell me, if that's what this was.
Then all of a sudden yesterday, she texted back. I guess she's just been busy. It happens. There's probably a whole new apocalypse going on that I don't know about. I'm more out of the loop than I realized.
We agreed to meet for lunch. I suggested the Olive Garden, due to her love of all foods Italian, and she said she'd meet me there at 2. I had to admit, I was really nervous. But also really excited to see her again. I missed her so much. Even more now that we were in the same city and I thought about that each night when I sat out on my balcony, wondering if any of the sparkling lights beneath me were hers. I hoped that it was okay. That I was allowed to miss her. 'Cause even if it wasn't? I still did. It was just one more thing she'd have to accept, not unlike the magick.
((Kennedy...))