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I know, I know it has been an awful long time since anybody has heard from me, and I am not dead...yet. So much has been going on but I really don't know where my life is headed. Really, I'm going to college after working my ass off for many months after deciding to go through many toils and snares and much heartache because it became my dream to go to Florida State. If someone would have asked me if I were going to college freshman year of high school I would of probably laughed and I really didn't do so well that year. I was rather depressed, more so than well any other time in my life, and I was very lonely so I didn't do well in school, in fact I even chose not to do stuff just for the hell of it and I spent the rest of my high school life trying to make up for it and I did, I pulled out of high school with at least a 4.0 weighted GPA, so that wasn't horrible. But the point is I worked really hard for the past four years to get to college and I am so glad that I chose Florida State even though my uncle doesn't think it was a wise choice as he is the biggest Gators fan you would ever meet I never thought it would come to this but when I went over my Grandma's for a family Christmas meal he would tease me and sorta put me down because I went to Florida State rather than his alma mater...but anyway I am really glad I went to Florida State and I have a ton of pride for the school but this last semester something wasn't right at all. I was really feeling down the entire time, so busy too so I really couldn't analyze so much why but nothing seemed to work out either and it was just a hellish semester. I really hope this next semester will go better, it should be less stressful because although I have more classes and a freaking awful schedule I will at least have weekends free for the first time so that is certainly a plus! I also made a room change within my dorm, trying something new and I have a new roommate named Jeff, and I am really confident that this is going to work out, I knew him before from my retard math class and he seems like a really nice and quiet person like me so I think we are going to get along just fine...too bad my new room is in the basement of Cawthon...lol I like it though! All in all, I think I had a pretty good semester I really worked hard, I am always trying to prove myself and I don't know why, in my eyes I failed but my entire family seemed to think I did wonderful, I ended up with 21 credits this semester, All A's and a B+, I was aiming for straight A's, one thing I can NEVER accomplish no matter what I do, but I can tell one thing is for sure, I would have gotten straight A's in high school if I had this much motivation then because from what I have seen so far it is much harder to make an A in college then in is in high school, high school was a breeze. I never have had this much motivation in my life, except last year when I was trying to get into college and filling out scholarship applications and Florida State applications and auditions, which reminds me I have an audition the first day that I get back and a lesson that first Friday that I get back, so I am going to have to accomplish something while I am home. But anyway, sorry for boring everyone, I guess I am sort of playing catch up here, the point is that I am really trying hard here in college, I am doing all of my work as soon as I get it and procrastination is no longer in my vocabulary, but for what?? I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I am doing becoming a band director, I hope I am making the right decision...music has always been the number one priority in my life, but more so on the Classic Rock side...but after analyzing my life at the end of high school sometime during my senior year I felt that the only thing I could see myself doing is becoming a band director so that is what I chose to do. I don't know though, i feel like such a recluse...I have been really anti social the past six years or so, I really hope that it doesn't interfere with getting a job...I just don't know anymore. H E L P !
Anyway, enough of that it just sort of came up because I was thinking and I just don't know what I am doing with my life at this moment in time... In other news though, and I know it is going to be a really fun time but I am not looking forward to it, is that this Sunday I am being picked up by a Shuttle bus at the Florida Mall by Sears and they will be taking me to Miami where I will be participating in the Orange Bowl, yes nobody knows how we got there! lol but I'm glad we did, and I know that we can pull this off even though our best linebacker got kicked off the team today...A.J. Nicholson RAPE charges?? So they will probably put us up in a five star hotel on the beach and we get 80$ spending money and like 300$ seats at the game and all we have to do is pregame and maybe a parade or something...so it should be fun.
Before I left Tallhassee, I made one of the biggest decisions of my life. My horn that I bought my freshman year of high school was just not cutting it for me, the trombone was in great condition, but it had its quarks that certainly came out when I played it for ten hours each and every day without rest, lol...college of music stole my soul!! But anyway I really wanted a new instrument more than anything, so I planned on buying a new Edwards from the factory online for $3300. Edwards is a premiere trombone maker, the highest end of the Getzen company...as Lexus is to Toyota...or how Acura is to Honda...but anyway my parents were not going to help me to buy the horn and I would have had to take out a loan just to buy it and it would have taken six months to a year to custom make for me and all of a sudden, actually at the ACC Championships in Jacksonville I was talking with one of the trombone players and I guess it came up that I wanted a new horn, and he told me about a kid in the collge of music that is in my trombone studio that was going to sell is horn, its a nice horn an Edwards/Getzen mix...used but in near perfect condition, no dents, only a few scratches...but it plays well. I talked with the guy a million times and went to play the horn several times, he was asking for $1800, and he wouldn't come down at all. Anyway, he was going to buy a ten thousand dollar silver horn made in germany!! But I debated it a week, and it was the hardest decision of my life, but out of my own bank account of Wendys money I bought the horn and I was mad at myself but it was a good deal and I am happy with it now. I hope that it lasts me awhile! He gave me two bells, two sets of tuning slides, and three leadpipes, along with everything else which equals to about $4500 new! So, it should do me well for a long time. All I have to do now is sell my old horn somehow. I hope that I can get something out of it. The bad part about it is, the guy that sold it to me got into a bad car accident that same week and he told me he had to go home early because he was gonna be sued!! I feel bad for him I believe he is a bit out of luck now.
When my parents picked me up from Tallahassee I just happened to thing about something like the entire time and I don't know why it dawned on me at such a time or even at all but I thought I am going to need a job that I am going to work over the summer full time to build my bank account back up so I will have money for the year for stuff like car insurance, gas, and anything else that might come up...but I thought, why not work with my dad? So I may go to work with my dad over the summer, well probably not directly with him but in the same company. My dad runs a construction plumbing company, and I can do some office work since I type so damn fast, or maybe even be a plumbers helper, I would probably be paid generously and I would get to around my dad a lot...so I thought that was cool. Here I come Reliable Rate Plumbing!!
I guess I should talk about my birthday and Christmas eh? I'm sure EVERYONE is just wondering what Chapkin got and how old he is, HA...anyway I had my birthday on the 23rd of december as all of you already know, and I really, really appreciate everyone who wished me a happy birthday, no one has ever done that before except Kim! God Bless Facebook!! hehe, anyway I had a good birthday, I got to eat out at Dixie Crossroads which is always amazing!! For my birthday, on top of a bunch of money from my family, I got some clothes from my parents and a new freaking 350$ laser printer...and they said I wouldn't have Christmas or Birthday!! So I tried the printer and it works great, I'm glad I got it because my other one completely died on me during finals week when I had to print some fifty-five pages for my composition final paper. So that was my birthday and I am nineteen...I feel soooo OLD!
Christmas was rather nice as well! I ended up getting some necesarry new clothes, three seasons of 24!! and 400$ from my family, but all and all I made some 700$ on top of the other gifts!! So I ended up buying Battlefield 2 so I could play with my brother online, two seasons of the Simpsons, to more seasons of Married With Children, and FINALLY two seasons of CSI Las Vegas!! So I am happy, I am in a DVD season set craze, I am trying to build a collection. So, I am very happy with the outcome of this Christmas! I am just sad that I only have two days left before I have to go to Miami and then a couple of busy busy days before I have to go back to Tallahassee but I am kind of looking forward to going back to try some new classes that will probably quickly get old, but the new room mate should be interesting too, as well as the new room. I hope the whole condo deal goes well next year, I am going to have three room mates or I won't be able to afford the payments on it, but I hope it works out I found a really really nice condo that is accessible and rather close to the school so that would work out perfectly and its on a beautiful lot...lakeside property situated on a gold course!! lol That would be so nice! Anyway, I am rambling again and my wrist really hurts from typing, so I shall move on!
I need to shave, I am such a bum! And my hair is getting really really long and very thick! I actually really want to grow it out, as do my family they really like my hair really long. I really want to but the thing is is that it will grow up since it is so damn thick, rather than down and when the wind blows it will blow it everywhere and stay where it blew it!! Such is the case today when I went out to play with my pup Shadow, whom I am going to miss severely when I have to leave again! Anyway, I will have to make a decision if I am going to cut it or not sometime after Miami.
Lately, I have been experiencing some pains and I don't know what is causing it! It is either my heart or my lungs and it happens almost everytime I breath in deeply, as if something were pushing on them! I don't know what to do about it but it is getting really annoying especially if I am in bed trying to get to sleep or when I first wake up, that is when it hurts the worst. Also, about every ten minutes when I breathe in something in my right shoulder blade pops, its really weird and worth noting on my journal...lol I don't know I am falling apart and I am only nineteen...I am also gaining some weight which sucks, and weird because in college I eat one meal a day, be it fast food everyday but I am very active walking to all my classes which are all over the place and participating in marching band, I don't understand...but I finally have a gut and I don't like it, I miss being the skiniest person alive! I hope I am not dying...at least I still look good...LOL I think I look better with longer hair, what do ya'll think?
Something else that Christmas this year made me think about again, somehow we were talking about dogs and the idea of how my first dog died came up and I started to think about it again after we talked about it. It is so sad, we think the vet killed him! We went on vacation, and he was only like twelve, but we went on vacation and left him with the vet and we came back a week later, and he has done this MANY times before, anytime my parents went out of town for anything...anyway when we came back he sat down, and never got back up. He was so healthy before we left! He even deficated on the floor and smeared it all over the place as he would tried to get up but all he could do is spin around in it. Because of this we had to move him outside so we could clean it up, he made it throught he night but when I got back from church he was still there on the side of the house and I went to see him and I had to come in to tell my family that he didn't look so well and that he wasn't feeling much better and that they should go and see him. My entire family went outside at that moment, where he died in my arms. That was the first that I had ever experienced and it was really hard. Rest in peace, Diablo. The greatest part about it, although he wasn't in his right mind that last day, he waited until the entire family was outside before he parted for doggie heaven. I miss him, and I am certainly going to miss Shadow when I leave back for college as well as Miami...they got Diablo on my birthday...the actual day I was born so I was very close to him!
Anyway, that is enough for me by this time it has already been 13,453 characters for this post, I wonder if I have surpassed my early long posts that I used to make daily, now its just once every month or so...but I won't bore any of the few people who still keep up with my journal with meaningless babble and reminicense. I hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday however and I wish everyone the best. Have a great night, as I find some medication for my carpel tunnel syndrome!
Goodnight.
~JChapkin
Anyway, enough of that it just sort of came up because I was thinking and I just don't know what I am doing with my life at this moment in time... In other news though, and I know it is going to be a really fun time but I am not looking forward to it, is that this Sunday I am being picked up by a Shuttle bus at the Florida Mall by Sears and they will be taking me to Miami where I will be participating in the Orange Bowl, yes nobody knows how we got there! lol but I'm glad we did, and I know that we can pull this off even though our best linebacker got kicked off the team today...A.J. Nicholson RAPE charges?? So they will probably put us up in a five star hotel on the beach and we get 80$ spending money and like 300$ seats at the game and all we have to do is pregame and maybe a parade or something...so it should be fun.
Before I left Tallhassee, I made one of the biggest decisions of my life. My horn that I bought my freshman year of high school was just not cutting it for me, the trombone was in great condition, but it had its quarks that certainly came out when I played it for ten hours each and every day without rest, lol...college of music stole my soul!! But anyway I really wanted a new instrument more than anything, so I planned on buying a new Edwards from the factory online for $3300. Edwards is a premiere trombone maker, the highest end of the Getzen company...as Lexus is to Toyota...or how Acura is to Honda...but anyway my parents were not going to help me to buy the horn and I would have had to take out a loan just to buy it and it would have taken six months to a year to custom make for me and all of a sudden, actually at the ACC Championships in Jacksonville I was talking with one of the trombone players and I guess it came up that I wanted a new horn, and he told me about a kid in the collge of music that is in my trombone studio that was going to sell is horn, its a nice horn an Edwards/Getzen mix...used but in near perfect condition, no dents, only a few scratches...but it plays well. I talked with the guy a million times and went to play the horn several times, he was asking for $1800, and he wouldn't come down at all. Anyway, he was going to buy a ten thousand dollar silver horn made in germany!! But I debated it a week, and it was the hardest decision of my life, but out of my own bank account of Wendys money I bought the horn and I was mad at myself but it was a good deal and I am happy with it now. I hope that it lasts me awhile! He gave me two bells, two sets of tuning slides, and three leadpipes, along with everything else which equals to about $4500 new! So, it should do me well for a long time. All I have to do now is sell my old horn somehow. I hope that I can get something out of it. The bad part about it is, the guy that sold it to me got into a bad car accident that same week and he told me he had to go home early because he was gonna be sued!! I feel bad for him I believe he is a bit out of luck now.
When my parents picked me up from Tallahassee I just happened to thing about something like the entire time and I don't know why it dawned on me at such a time or even at all but I thought I am going to need a job that I am going to work over the summer full time to build my bank account back up so I will have money for the year for stuff like car insurance, gas, and anything else that might come up...but I thought, why not work with my dad? So I may go to work with my dad over the summer, well probably not directly with him but in the same company. My dad runs a construction plumbing company, and I can do some office work since I type so damn fast, or maybe even be a plumbers helper, I would probably be paid generously and I would get to around my dad a lot...so I thought that was cool. Here I come Reliable Rate Plumbing!!
I guess I should talk about my birthday and Christmas eh? I'm sure EVERYONE is just wondering what Chapkin got and how old he is, HA...anyway I had my birthday on the 23rd of december as all of you already know, and I really, really appreciate everyone who wished me a happy birthday, no one has ever done that before except Kim! God Bless Facebook!! hehe, anyway I had a good birthday, I got to eat out at Dixie Crossroads which is always amazing!! For my birthday, on top of a bunch of money from my family, I got some clothes from my parents and a new freaking 350$ laser printer...and they said I wouldn't have Christmas or Birthday!! So I tried the printer and it works great, I'm glad I got it because my other one completely died on me during finals week when I had to print some fifty-five pages for my composition final paper. So that was my birthday and I am nineteen...I feel soooo OLD!
Christmas was rather nice as well! I ended up getting some necesarry new clothes, three seasons of 24!! and 400$ from my family, but all and all I made some 700$ on top of the other gifts!! So I ended up buying Battlefield 2 so I could play with my brother online, two seasons of the Simpsons, to more seasons of Married With Children, and FINALLY two seasons of CSI Las Vegas!! So I am happy, I am in a DVD season set craze, I am trying to build a collection. So, I am very happy with the outcome of this Christmas! I am just sad that I only have two days left before I have to go to Miami and then a couple of busy busy days before I have to go back to Tallahassee but I am kind of looking forward to going back to try some new classes that will probably quickly get old, but the new room mate should be interesting too, as well as the new room. I hope the whole condo deal goes well next year, I am going to have three room mates or I won't be able to afford the payments on it, but I hope it works out I found a really really nice condo that is accessible and rather close to the school so that would work out perfectly and its on a beautiful lot...lakeside property situated on a gold course!! lol That would be so nice! Anyway, I am rambling again and my wrist really hurts from typing, so I shall move on!
I need to shave, I am such a bum! And my hair is getting really really long and very thick! I actually really want to grow it out, as do my family they really like my hair really long. I really want to but the thing is is that it will grow up since it is so damn thick, rather than down and when the wind blows it will blow it everywhere and stay where it blew it!! Such is the case today when I went out to play with my pup Shadow, whom I am going to miss severely when I have to leave again! Anyway, I will have to make a decision if I am going to cut it or not sometime after Miami.
Lately, I have been experiencing some pains and I don't know what is causing it! It is either my heart or my lungs and it happens almost everytime I breath in deeply, as if something were pushing on them! I don't know what to do about it but it is getting really annoying especially if I am in bed trying to get to sleep or when I first wake up, that is when it hurts the worst. Also, about every ten minutes when I breathe in something in my right shoulder blade pops, its really weird and worth noting on my journal...lol I don't know I am falling apart and I am only nineteen...I am also gaining some weight which sucks, and weird because in college I eat one meal a day, be it fast food everyday but I am very active walking to all my classes which are all over the place and participating in marching band, I don't understand...but I finally have a gut and I don't like it, I miss being the skiniest person alive! I hope I am not dying...at least I still look good...LOL I think I look better with longer hair, what do ya'll think?
Something else that Christmas this year made me think about again, somehow we were talking about dogs and the idea of how my first dog died came up and I started to think about it again after we talked about it. It is so sad, we think the vet killed him! We went on vacation, and he was only like twelve, but we went on vacation and left him with the vet and we came back a week later, and he has done this MANY times before, anytime my parents went out of town for anything...anyway when we came back he sat down, and never got back up. He was so healthy before we left! He even deficated on the floor and smeared it all over the place as he would tried to get up but all he could do is spin around in it. Because of this we had to move him outside so we could clean it up, he made it throught he night but when I got back from church he was still there on the side of the house and I went to see him and I had to come in to tell my family that he didn't look so well and that he wasn't feeling much better and that they should go and see him. My entire family went outside at that moment, where he died in my arms. That was the first that I had ever experienced and it was really hard. Rest in peace, Diablo. The greatest part about it, although he wasn't in his right mind that last day, he waited until the entire family was outside before he parted for doggie heaven. I miss him, and I am certainly going to miss Shadow when I leave back for college as well as Miami...they got Diablo on my birthday...the actual day I was born so I was very close to him!
Anyway, that is enough for me by this time it has already been 13,453 characters for this post, I wonder if I have surpassed my early long posts that I used to make daily, now its just once every month or so...but I won't bore any of the few people who still keep up with my journal with meaningless babble and reminicense. I hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday however and I wish everyone the best. Have a great night, as I find some medication for my carpel tunnel syndrome!
Goodnight.
~JChapkin