He didn't come back
I expected that he would, but he didn't.
I'm a little depressed because my boyfriend is headed somewhere without me.
It's honestly my own fault that I'm not with him. I told him I didn't want to go. It was the truth after all. He asked; I answered. It's as simple as that.
BUT - He's been ailed for the past few days, and I offered to drive him because he said he didn't know whether or not he could make it on his own. I packed my things and prepared for the trip. As he was about to leave I made the final choice to go. I walked inside to make sure everything was off, and when I emerged he was gone.
I'm not offended by this gesture at all. I know he was thinking I was just going because I felt obligated. He took the choice away from me thinking he was doing me a favor.
The guilt I feel for not being there with him is pretty intense, but in the end after we'd talked on the phone I realized I really did want to go. I suppose I just didn't realize at first that we would be able to spend time with each other during the trip. As usual I was wrong, and now I feel like a douchebag.
In the end I asked him to return to retrieve me, but he decline. He said it was because he didn't have time, but I find that difficult to believe. It's most likely because I was unable to convince him that I truly did want to go, so he stood by his choice of denying me the option solely based on his previous judgement.
Ok, so maybe it wasn't quite as simple as that, but then again nothing really ever is.
:(
Rocky
I'm a little depressed because my boyfriend is headed somewhere without me.
It's honestly my own fault that I'm not with him. I told him I didn't want to go. It was the truth after all. He asked; I answered. It's as simple as that.
BUT - He's been ailed for the past few days, and I offered to drive him because he said he didn't know whether or not he could make it on his own. I packed my things and prepared for the trip. As he was about to leave I made the final choice to go. I walked inside to make sure everything was off, and when I emerged he was gone.
I'm not offended by this gesture at all. I know he was thinking I was just going because I felt obligated. He took the choice away from me thinking he was doing me a favor.
The guilt I feel for not being there with him is pretty intense, but in the end after we'd talked on the phone I realized I really did want to go. I suppose I just didn't realize at first that we would be able to spend time with each other during the trip. As usual I was wrong, and now I feel like a douchebag.
In the end I asked him to return to retrieve me, but he decline. He said it was because he didn't have time, but I find that difficult to believe. It's most likely because I was unable to convince him that I truly did want to go, so he stood by his choice of denying me the option solely based on his previous judgement.
Ok, so maybe it wasn't quite as simple as that, but then again nothing really ever is.
:(
Rocky