Life is Great and no one has to tell me that i finally figured it out on my own
Well all i think most of u already know but for the few who dont Ive decided to go back into the army there is nothing here for me and jobs r slim to none. I havnt done any drugs in over a month and feelin really good about it. I will be married in a few weeks and am really excited. Ive always been really sceptical about it all but for once in my life i have no worries and am happy and i realized it isnt the people around me that make me feel that way I finally found it in myself and I am comfortable w it all. Austin is doin great in school he loves it. Hes growin up wayyyyy to fast. I wish i could just keep him my lil boy but im not gonna hold him back. I just hope he does ok w the move and all. Im gonna try and get stationed state side but theres never anu guarentee to that so i guess im just gonna go where the good Lord sends me lol. Everyone around me seems to be doin great everyones happy and keepin there heads up even under adversity. There are many who think im stupid for goin bakc into the army but i dont expect anyone to understand its somthin i have to do formyself and for my family. The people who r the closest to me support my descision and i respect those who dont but in the end its my life and i make my descisions im sick of livin my life to make everyone happy either u like it or sorry bout ur luck anymore lol well just wanted to update to everyoen who dint know yet laterz all I love ya all and yes jen i do wish the best for u and rick im happy u all r happy kepp doin what ur doin and things will be fine i had to find it within myself not someone else laterz all love you ALL even u jen