fuck everyone...this sucks!
and that was that, she said she can't and most likely won't in the future, God damn it hurt....more than ever, i lost it yesterday...complete breakdown, i was so sure of things....this sucks big time, i don't know what to do anymore, i'm nto letting myself slip into like, any depression or anything, i can't afford that right now. but she was perfect...still is. somehow it's never my fault but it only happens to me...i hate it.