The Past 2 Weeks ...
Well to say the least they have been like a roller coaster. I mean for the majority, I have been completely happy in general ... I mean I have my baby back ... I have alot to be happy about ... Her mom is learning to accept it, we love each other more than ever, we're making plans for the future and all of that good stuff. It's just that little things get to me so easily and stress me out like crazy ...
For example ... My nephew and Cody were fighting and made me lose my keys. So I'm going to have to go and get a locksmith to make me another one ... Which is going to take money that I really don't have. And then there is me getting insurance on my car (Which is also a complete gas guzzler by the way.). I mean I could get it in my name, but seeing as how it is a sports car ... Yeah I can't afford that. So I'm trying to figure some way around that. And then after that there is the whole not having a job thing. I mean damn, I've applied everywhere. At least no one can say that I'm not trying. But with all that on me, any time any other little thing pops up ... I spazz. And to be completely honest I don't think my crazy environment helps that any ...
Seems that lately, the only people in my life (Besides Kayla.) are my nagging family, my friend Charles who is in the same situation I am, and a crazy 53 yr old man who is recovering from 10 yrs of madness after having a spike go all the way through his skull. And it's everyday that I'm around the craziness ... And at first these people (Charles and Glenn.) made sense to me ... But now it's like "AHHH!" I think they're just driving me more insane than I already am.
But I mean ... I KNOW that everything will be ok EVENTUALLY. It's just that in this situation, I am not very patient and it's getting to me ... I'm pretty sure that if I can just stay positive things will be alot easier ... But that's easier said that done, isn't it?
For example ... My nephew and Cody were fighting and made me lose my keys. So I'm going to have to go and get a locksmith to make me another one ... Which is going to take money that I really don't have. And then there is me getting insurance on my car (Which is also a complete gas guzzler by the way.). I mean I could get it in my name, but seeing as how it is a sports car ... Yeah I can't afford that. So I'm trying to figure some way around that. And then after that there is the whole not having a job thing. I mean damn, I've applied everywhere. At least no one can say that I'm not trying. But with all that on me, any time any other little thing pops up ... I spazz. And to be completely honest I don't think my crazy environment helps that any ...
Seems that lately, the only people in my life (Besides Kayla.) are my nagging family, my friend Charles who is in the same situation I am, and a crazy 53 yr old man who is recovering from 10 yrs of madness after having a spike go all the way through his skull. And it's everyday that I'm around the craziness ... And at first these people (Charles and Glenn.) made sense to me ... But now it's like "AHHH!" I think they're just driving me more insane than I already am.
But I mean ... I KNOW that everything will be ok EVENTUALLY. It's just that in this situation, I am not very patient and it's getting to me ... I'm pretty sure that if I can just stay positive things will be alot easier ... But that's easier said that done, isn't it?