I turn on million man march, I see the same bitch that was in my homeboy Warren G video.
How many times in the past - YEARS - have there been days like these, where I could where a t-shirt outside, that I stared from behind the horizontal bars of the shades, instead of participating in what the day has to offer? I can't even count, but the coniditions are not so dissimilar I guess. Being sick for one doesn't help, all I feel like doing is sleeping, but my room is to the point that it HAS to be cleaned up, there is homework to do, and there is nobody here for me. There is nobody around here close enough, and perhaps that I'm interested in enough, to just hang out, take a walk, throw a football, just hang outside and talk.
I'm not entirely not independent. As a matter of fact I have had to spend a lot of time pushing myself in times like these to just enjoy whats out there by myself, but after time that wears. Its tough to feel almost entirely alone. Yea, some of my classmates are my friend as well and sometimes we go to lunch or have a study group, but thats been about the extent of it, and to be honest, not sure I could be much better friends with them than that. I'm a lot different than they are. I don't know, this entry won't accomplish much but to express my loneliness which has maybe reached a new peak out here. I've got to hang in about 3 1/2 more months I guess and then I can move on again and hopefully find myself in a much more favorable situation. Find myself...have I done that yet?
"Don't get mad, I'm only bein' real. Yea." - Snoop Dogg
I'm not entirely not independent. As a matter of fact I have had to spend a lot of time pushing myself in times like these to just enjoy whats out there by myself, but after time that wears. Its tough to feel almost entirely alone. Yea, some of my classmates are my friend as well and sometimes we go to lunch or have a study group, but thats been about the extent of it, and to be honest, not sure I could be much better friends with them than that. I'm a lot different than they are. I don't know, this entry won't accomplish much but to express my loneliness which has maybe reached a new peak out here. I've got to hang in about 3 1/2 more months I guess and then I can move on again and hopefully find myself in a much more favorable situation. Find myself...have I done that yet?
"Don't get mad, I'm only bein' real. Yea." - Snoop Dogg