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i can't believe this is happening.
shane is dead, that's probably the hardest thing for me to say right now.
it feels like a dream, like none of this is real.
like i'm watching a car crash happen in slow motion.
school was so horrible, i couldn't control myself, i would just start crying for no reason.
i can't believe he's gone, i just saw him and i was just talking to him.
i want this all to be over, and walk into school tomorrow and see him standing at lauren's locker waiting for her to get to school. i want to stand next to him waiting for ryan to come over, and then we'd all stand there and talk like it used to be.
we didn't hang out that much, but all i can think about is him picking me and lauren up and taking us to the boys and girls club to watch him play basketball, and me talking on the phone to him for like an hour, when him and lauren were fighting over something stupid. i want to joke with him about being second in line, and throw rocks at him at the baseball games.
i can't believe he's gone, and friday is going to be really tough.
shane is dead, that's probably the hardest thing for me to say right now.
it feels like a dream, like none of this is real.
like i'm watching a car crash happen in slow motion.
school was so horrible, i couldn't control myself, i would just start crying for no reason.
i can't believe he's gone, i just saw him and i was just talking to him.
i want this all to be over, and walk into school tomorrow and see him standing at lauren's locker waiting for her to get to school. i want to stand next to him waiting for ryan to come over, and then we'd all stand there and talk like it used to be.
we didn't hang out that much, but all i can think about is him picking me and lauren up and taking us to the boys and girls club to watch him play basketball, and me talking on the phone to him for like an hour, when him and lauren were fighting over something stupid. i want to joke with him about being second in line, and throw rocks at him at the baseball games.
i can't believe he's gone, and friday is going to be really tough.