Caluclations
I'm running low on everything.
HairSpray
Powder
Music
Money
Hope
Patience
Clothes
Trust
Beliefs
Lip Gloss
Purfume
Gum
Money
Gas
Books
Confidence
Honor
Power
Truth
Pizza Rolls
Choices
Everything is so messed up. Stupid L n R, i just dont understand that. My dad leaves in a week and is going to be gone for three weeks to give this NC thing a test run. And he gets to try to negotiate something that should have been a no problem plot. And on my selfish note, because hes leaving and taking a car, im going to have to go back to riding the stupid bus.
And that makes me laugh at myself, because i could of had a hide, a no problem perfect ride. But im fueling my own fire, and once again fucked myself over by looking the wrong way. The complete wrong way. I'm really very good at that, i deserve like a cookie or something.
I dont know about this whole being completley single thing. I mean, like im finding things out about myself that i never knew because i'm always influeneced by other people. And it seems every where i go i just get reminded about one thing or another. Good example, Pete in best buys, i fucking hate pete, stupid fucking music choices. How the fuck would he know that. Well then again he does work at best buys and he is surrounded by music. I over-react.
I made myself a list of cd's i want, im sort of surprised at what it says. But because im fucking poor from christmas, im getting people to let me borrow them and then burning them, becuase i've found out how to burn cds again on this new program. You want to help on my musical journey, IM me, and i'll tell you what i need.
I've been hanging out with Raeann. Shes hilarious and so full of life and spunk, i love her. We had great fun on Thursday. and Saturday, shes going to be my date type person, unless adam comes, then im cool again. Haha, no fears. Im rocking out, "hard core" dancing with sam. And Kayla and i always bounce around and have a good time. And i plan on meeting new people and talking to people i know, but have never actually talked to, and just having a good time. Definatly going to be occupied. If the night makes me cry, there will be murder. And it will be me. Its going to be an awesome show none the less. And afterwards im having a sleepover with Raeann. It should be an interesting night. Haha.
Im addicted to coffee. The hotness, the burn, the taste, the effects. Its awful. Oh well, everyone needs an addiction. But im working on it, i'll get a new one seen. Because this coffee thing cant last long. I dont ever sleep any more. I try and read to make myself tired, but i just finish the books and the read it again, and this goes on into the early morning hours, then i finally pass out, and just think so much that it wakes me up, or i get nightmares, which is weird. Then i wake up by like ten if i dont have school. So i basically give up. Haha, stupid fucking coffee.
Well i think im just rambling to be heard, so im done.
HairSpray
Powder
Music
Money
Hope
Patience
Clothes
Trust
Beliefs
Lip Gloss
Purfume
Gum
Money
Gas
Books
Confidence
Honor
Power
Truth
Pizza Rolls
Choices
Everything is so messed up. Stupid L n R, i just dont understand that. My dad leaves in a week and is going to be gone for three weeks to give this NC thing a test run. And he gets to try to negotiate something that should have been a no problem plot. And on my selfish note, because hes leaving and taking a car, im going to have to go back to riding the stupid bus.
And that makes me laugh at myself, because i could of had a hide, a no problem perfect ride. But im fueling my own fire, and once again fucked myself over by looking the wrong way. The complete wrong way. I'm really very good at that, i deserve like a cookie or something.
I dont know about this whole being completley single thing. I mean, like im finding things out about myself that i never knew because i'm always influeneced by other people. And it seems every where i go i just get reminded about one thing or another. Good example, Pete in best buys, i fucking hate pete, stupid fucking music choices. How the fuck would he know that. Well then again he does work at best buys and he is surrounded by music. I over-react.
I made myself a list of cd's i want, im sort of surprised at what it says. But because im fucking poor from christmas, im getting people to let me borrow them and then burning them, becuase i've found out how to burn cds again on this new program. You want to help on my musical journey, IM me, and i'll tell you what i need.
I've been hanging out with Raeann. Shes hilarious and so full of life and spunk, i love her. We had great fun on Thursday. and Saturday, shes going to be my date type person, unless adam comes, then im cool again. Haha, no fears. Im rocking out, "hard core" dancing with sam. And Kayla and i always bounce around and have a good time. And i plan on meeting new people and talking to people i know, but have never actually talked to, and just having a good time. Definatly going to be occupied. If the night makes me cry, there will be murder. And it will be me. Its going to be an awesome show none the less. And afterwards im having a sleepover with Raeann. It should be an interesting night. Haha.
Im addicted to coffee. The hotness, the burn, the taste, the effects. Its awful. Oh well, everyone needs an addiction. But im working on it, i'll get a new one seen. Because this coffee thing cant last long. I dont ever sleep any more. I try and read to make myself tired, but i just finish the books and the read it again, and this goes on into the early morning hours, then i finally pass out, and just think so much that it wakes me up, or i get nightmares, which is weird. Then i wake up by like ten if i dont have school. So i basically give up. Haha, stupid fucking coffee.
Well i think im just rambling to be heard, so im done.