Simi vs SB
Yeah so we went to get coffee at my favorite place ever, Dr.Conkey's. Their coffee is waaayyy better than Starbucks and it's not as expensive. So as we're driving around I realize that life here would probably be better for me. It would be normalcy, something I've strived for my entire life, at least when it comes to my living situation. People really aren't that stuck up and it's a nice neighborhood. And they have a continuation school here which my aunt is going to call for me on tuesday whether I'm coming back or not.
But then it comes down to me missing my friends.
I mean I guess I have a lot of people that care about me, even if they don't always show it. But that's the problem:
They don't show it.
I can't spend my whole life waiting for someone to give me a reason to stay.
I wish someone would.
But just hinting you care isn't enough.
This is so hard.
But when I think about it, the people i owuld be staying for, I never see anyway.
So I'd see them just as often cause I'd still go visit and spend the weekend and all that.
I'm going back to SB this week to finish school but I'm almost positive I'm coming back unless someone speaks up.
Just saying it "sucks" that I'm moving doesn't make me want to stay.
I need more.
FUCK
I have to decide.
I have a week.
Hopefully my decision is the right one.
Someone save me?
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But then it comes down to me missing my friends.
I mean I guess I have a lot of people that care about me, even if they don't always show it. But that's the problem:
They don't show it.
I can't spend my whole life waiting for someone to give me a reason to stay.
I wish someone would.
But just hinting you care isn't enough.
This is so hard.
But when I think about it, the people i owuld be staying for, I never see anyway.
So I'd see them just as often cause I'd still go visit and spend the weekend and all that.
I'm going back to SB this week to finish school but I'm almost positive I'm coming back unless someone speaks up.
Just saying it "sucks" that I'm moving doesn't make me want to stay.
I need more.
FUCK
I have to decide.
I have a week.
Hopefully my decision is the right one.
Someone save me?
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