"Far more shocking than anything I ever knew, right on cue..."

[jewhawk]

Who? kissmynuts and jewhawk
What? Getting up to speed
When? Right after this
Where? Mt. Sinai Medical Center

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[kissmynuts]

"Not like this," Elliot had to confirm as he sat down heavily in one of the waiting room chairs. "He has a level of memory loss around the fits, which is normal, but this has cut off a larger level of his short term memory. They think it's only temporary and they're going to do more tests and thing, but for now, this is the Blaine we have. He thinks he's on our tour around Europe that we ended just before he got that reunion invite. The doctor even thinks it could be a level of psychological stress, that Blaine's jumped back to a time prior to when a lot of that hit. It's all speculation, though."

He looked towards the entrance of the waiting room and up the hall. "Kurt doesn't know that last bit. He bolted. No one knows if he should be told or not, but the thing is, Blaine has Kurt listed everywhere as his next of kin now. Not Ellie's mother like he used to. Kurt has the reigns, but he's a mess himself. Blaine's his lifeline and I think he's spinning out of control. He's with some chick who said she's Kurt's friend. Kurt seemed okay with her, but it looks like she's freaking too. It all happened so quickly. He hasn't got drugs, but who can really trap him here to stop him doing it if it gets bad enough. That's why I called you, dude. What do you think I should do? Call his shrink or something?"

[jewhawk]

Puck's mind was basically on a constant broken record loop of repetitive Oh, shits as he just looked at Elliott, shaking his head. This hadn't happened before, and they thought it was only temporarily. Thought. As in didn't know. As it it could be permanent. Puck tried to keep the panic under control as he met Elliott's gaze. "S... So he won't remember me being back in his life either." He shook his head again, knowing that Blaine's remembering him probably wasn't the most important thing right now, but fucked if he could wrap his mind around that.

This was where it was really down to the wire. Kurt had asked Puck to be his sponsor for the moments like this. When everything really seemed too much. And as much as Puck himself was struggling with the new information he'd just gotten, and as much as he had a little voice in the back of his mind telling him that he should just give in, too, and be done with it, he couldn't. And part of the reason he couldn't was down the hall, and needed him to help him through this. "Fuck... Listen... Don't call his shrink yet, okay? I'm gonna try to talk to him. If I can't get through to him, then we'll try the shrink... But before I go... Is there anything else I need to know?" And that was when he couldn't contain it anymore, and he choked on a sob that he couldn't hold back.

[kissmynuts]

Elliot gave a helpless shrug with a small shake of his head. "I guess not, dude. Not right now. But don't just take that to be a finality or anything. You can't forget Blaine's sick, his brain is sick, and if there is some swelling there, it's putting pressure on shit and making things function wrong. They're going to treat him for it. It's been hard to know exactly how to treat him beyond the standard stuff up to now because he's been totally out of it. Look, dude, this epilepsy thing... I know seeing his fits and all that is pretty fucking full-on, and that seems like it should be the extent of it, but there are always risks there could be more serious complications. Up to now, we've thought Blaine was keeping it together pretty well over the Kurt stuff, but maybe he's just been stifling stuff to protect Kurt. We don't know. But they seem to think the physical stuff could be causing a psychological reaction, or vice versa. We've just got to let the docs do their thing to help him."

"It's Kurt we've got to figure out what to do. Blaine would fucking kill us if he knew Kurt flipped out and we didn't take care of him when we couldn't. He's pretty much made us all swear on our lives we would do that if it ever came to the crunch. But this shit? I've been around it in my life, but I've never been directly inflicted with it. I got no idea how to deal with someone craving that shit, especially not to Kurt's level. Dude, he has scratched up all his hands and arms to bleeding point he's so desperate. He's sweating, his eyes are all red, he's shaking. I just wanna help him if we can, not just for him because as Blaine's mates, it's our job to look after his other half when he can't. It's not so much the drugs I'm scared of, dude, it's what Kurt might do if he doesn't get them, or get help. Dude's a suicide risk, you know?"

[jewhawk]

It was seriously hard for Puck to make all of this communicate to his brain. Blaine's condition was worsening, and maybe it would get better, but maybe it wouldn't and there was no way of knowing. He glanced around the room, trying to pull his mind in and get it all to make sense, but no matter how hard he tried, all he was getting was a feeling of being sick to the stomach. "I knew the fits were bad, dude, but I didn't realize what else could happen. I didn't... What a fucking mess, dude."

Puck nodded, knowing full well that Elliot was absolutely right. They had to help Kurt, and stat. "He's come so far, dude. It would fucking kill Blaine if he came to and realized his health pushed Kurt over the edge. We can't lose Kurt. We lose Kurt, it won't matter if Blaine comes back from the amnesia, because the Blaine we know and love will be gone forever anyway. He'll carry on for Ellie, but he won't be the same, and that's just all there is to it. We gotta fight for both of them, dude."

[kissmynuts]

Elliot scratched the back of his head and his leg started to bounce restlessly under his kilt as he sat there just wishing all this would stop and be some sort of medical error. "There's always a risk bad shit could happen with it. It's why we're all so on the alert with it, and why we all learnt about it when Blaine got diagnosed. The more of us who knew all the shit with dealing with it, it lessened the chance of bad stuff happening. I mean, he still lived alone, but he knew to check in with someone by text a few times throughout the day so we knew he wasn't unconscious the floor somewhere. All the basic first-aid with it and shit. We all started going about things a different way to help him and now it's just second nature. But there is always that chance that he could still end up in a bad way. He normally gets back on his feet pretty quick, but this is... it's different, dude. I really don't wanna say that it's because of Kurt, but I can't help but worry if all that stress is what's taking it's toll and making Blaine sicker than he usually is."

"But even suggesting that without knowing for sure is bullshit, because it's the last thing Kurt needs. This has flipped him out. None of us wanna be the reason he falls off the wagon again. For one, Blaine will kill us if he found out we didn't take care of Kurt for him when he couldn't, and second... it could ruin everything and cause Kurt to pull the plug if he thinks he's doing harm to Blaine by stressing him out. And I think that might be where his mind is right now. His grip on reality is fucking up all over again because he thinks it's his fault and Blaine's not here this time to tell him otherwise. Blaine's his... anchor, I guess. He's explained that to us recently. He's been keeping Kurt's head above water so he can be well enough for more long-term progress with his recovery."

[jewhawk]

"I should've read up on it more. I just kinda thought it was always just going to be the fits, and maybe him getting banged up a little bit if he was in a bad place when he had a fit. I never thought it would do this to him." Puck's fingers came up to thread through his mohawk. It was getting too long, he realized, and if Blaine were himself, he'd be teasing him that he was on his way to mowover land again. That thought alone made something clinch down in his gut, and he had to focus on his shoes for a minute or two to be able to look up without crying. "I don't know, man. I guess it's possible. B's always been that guy who tries to take care of everybody and make sure they're all okay, even when he's not okay himself. It makes him an incredible friend, but I know it can't be good for him."

"Dude, I'm scared for Kurt. As much as if not more than for Blaine right now. I don't want him to blame himself for this, but I know he will. And if he's like me, which in this way, I know he is, drugs are going to be the thing that make the most sense in his head when he's at this point. You get to a point where you're strong enough to resist it, and you can find the good things to hold onto, but Blaine is Kurt's good thing, and he's his strength, and... Shit, dude, I don't know. I should try to talk to Kurt." He looked at Elliot, his eyes showing his concern for his friends. "Will they let me in to see him?"