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Dear Willis:
No further letters or ps's are required at this point. I already feel like a piece of dog shit on someone's shoe; someone who hasn't taken the time to acknowledge my presence and wipe me off. They feel it's necessary to carry me around and cram me in the crevice or their rainbow sandal as long as they can. I think this someone is God.
I hate to sound even remotely defensive. clearly you deemed my disclaimer unimportant. Today has pretty much baked the cake of rejection, and you put the pretty green icing on the top. I suppose if you would like to figure me out, which would mean you are still reading at this point, the key things most people don't know are found in my May 11th entry.
You are still pretty important to me. I just wish I had gotten, idk, a chance. Even if it was a snowball's chance in hell, it would've been better than the one you've given me.
Every day, I realize how less and less attractive I am. I just didn't see you as being shallow. I still feel half right. The I didn't see you part is true.
Once again, I will state that this should not be considered defensive. Maybe if we knew eachother a little better, you'd realize I am NEVER EVER defensive. that's not sarcasm. I pretty much just will just be in front of you pouring out my emotions and distress upon you like a lost little kid in a gigantic store. I am alone, and I want someone to notice, and try to help me. If that makes me childish, then I guess I am childish. But at least I am an honest child.
I would like to keep our friendship.
I'm not sure I ever wanted you to be my "boyfriend". I hate commitments anyway. But, you didn't assume that. You already told me that you didn't assume. Rightfully so.
Now, I will tell you some things, outright, so no more chaos about assumption.
1. I still adore you. I will continue to adore you. BUt I will not stalk you. A restraining order will not be necessary.
2. I want to remain your friend. That entry is mostly airbagging crap I needed to say. You may understand more about it if you read my entry from earlier today. Lots you missed while away at the lake.
3. I hope you won't hate me from now on because of this. It's a flaw in my character that I always seem to be on the defense when I am actually just trying to say what I mean. This is why I would make a horrible journalist.
4. I am truly amazed you read all of this trash. that's saying more than any of my other friends can.
No further letters or ps's are required at this point. I already feel like a piece of dog shit on someone's shoe; someone who hasn't taken the time to acknowledge my presence and wipe me off. They feel it's necessary to carry me around and cram me in the crevice or their rainbow sandal as long as they can. I think this someone is God.
I hate to sound even remotely defensive. clearly you deemed my disclaimer unimportant. Today has pretty much baked the cake of rejection, and you put the pretty green icing on the top. I suppose if you would like to figure me out, which would mean you are still reading at this point, the key things most people don't know are found in my May 11th entry.
You are still pretty important to me. I just wish I had gotten, idk, a chance. Even if it was a snowball's chance in hell, it would've been better than the one you've given me.
Every day, I realize how less and less attractive I am. I just didn't see you as being shallow. I still feel half right. The I didn't see you part is true.
Once again, I will state that this should not be considered defensive. Maybe if we knew eachother a little better, you'd realize I am NEVER EVER defensive. that's not sarcasm. I pretty much just will just be in front of you pouring out my emotions and distress upon you like a lost little kid in a gigantic store. I am alone, and I want someone to notice, and try to help me. If that makes me childish, then I guess I am childish. But at least I am an honest child.
I would like to keep our friendship.
I'm not sure I ever wanted you to be my "boyfriend". I hate commitments anyway. But, you didn't assume that. You already told me that you didn't assume. Rightfully so.
Now, I will tell you some things, outright, so no more chaos about assumption.
1. I still adore you. I will continue to adore you. BUt I will not stalk you. A restraining order will not be necessary.
2. I want to remain your friend. That entry is mostly airbagging crap I needed to say. You may understand more about it if you read my entry from earlier today. Lots you missed while away at the lake.
3. I hope you won't hate me from now on because of this. It's a flaw in my character that I always seem to be on the defense when I am actually just trying to say what I mean. This is why I would make a horrible journalist.
4. I am truly amazed you read all of this trash. that's saying more than any of my other friends can.