is this the last sunday?

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relishing the tiny quiet of the morning while matthew & noah are at the market, their saturday/sunday tradition. realising this may very well be the last bit of morning i have alone, because jonah will be here Soon. even if he waits awhile, its still going to be Soon. the heat has just been ridiculous & we went on a date yesterday afternoon, the first in so so long since my mom hasnt been able to watch noah & we have never left him with a sitter. it was nice to sit in the air conditioned theater for a couple of hours! loving how noah helps pick up the house before naptime & bedtime, and how it helps Me to pick up to. the house has never looked better than the last few weeks. tomatoes rippening by the day, fake-bacon, tomato & avocado sandwiches for dinners because anything cooked or Hot is just Too Much for our bellies to deal with. hoping they have more organic cantaloupes at the store today... so scrumptuous & sweet & juicy. tired of my parents calling every day asking if "WE are having a baby yet...".... first of all there is no WE involved & secondly they are who are watching noah while *i* birth jonah, so they would be among the first to know! its silly & i know they are just being cute but i remember when noah was born, my mom & my aunt kept calling him "OUR" baby, as in our family, as in trying to be all communal like, but i just hated it. it infuriated me at times! oh the hormones. still. he only lived inside My womb.
strange dreams last night left me with a sore jaw this morning. noah talking up a storm, reading books to his giant elmo & holding bigbird like a baby. he even strokes his head & says "its okay." its the sweetest thing EVER. big trucks scooting across the floor, obsessions with feathers, a tiny sewing project or two. i need to get sheets washed for joshua, who will come to stay with us for awhile this week!