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I don't know if I really want to resurrect my live journal and if I really want to bare all to anyone who cares enough to read this.
I don't have much to say, except that I am so sad and heartbroken. I miss my best friend and I can't really think of how to move on from here. I hate going home because there is so much of her there yet I feel so alone. I have little hope left, it was all spent over the last 2 years deluding myself thinking that things will be okay. All i want to do is stay and bed and think of you. Time takes me farther and farther away from the last time I saw her and held her and I can't get rid of the lump in my throat and the emptiness I feel without her.