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so i went 2 c the girl that i thought would b cool, but sadly another wasted attraction...its such a turn off wen girls think they can drink more than me and ther pukin all night and i have 2 take care of them...mayb i was kinda like a reject that whoever accidently made cuz it sure seems thers nothing out ther for me anymore, lifes not getting better....i hide it well though, u can c the smile on my face but ull never see the tears falling from my face...2 all of u trying 2 help me out of this rut im n stop...cuz its no use i was born to die, nothing more, nothing less, im a hopeless tragedy, i wish ther was a big self destruct button cuz id stomp all the fuck over it 2 end this bullshit...i wish it was that easy, mayb i deserve 2 b unhappy mayb i deserve all this pain...mayb this is all my fault...if so im really sorry for the things ive done, because now all i have is this lil pointy object and my coke, and im gonna keep on until thers nothing left, just fuck it all away...dont know y i wrote this guess 2 get my feelings out...i give up u all win, u can c me fall u can c me cry and wen u offer a hand ull just push me bak down...i left a white rose on her grave 2day...i really miss her and i wish shed come bak...but shes not no matter how much i need rhinni shes never comming bak...