work/friends/life.
And you now you just don't see me anymore
Well, I've been losing everything
You just don't see me anymore
I'll say goodbye
Since you left, she's a mess
She regrets all the things that she could've said
I worked monday, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday this past week, 9 hours a day, with an exception of wednesday being a ten hour day. I honestly just love my job. Sammie, got to school the same time as i did on wednesday, and she jumped out of her grandmas car and ran over to me with the biggest smile on her face and held up a book in the air and said "NEMO!!" and gave me the biggest hug. And i'm sorry, but that feeling is seriously so amazing. Walking in every day to kids running over to hug you and smiling, is amazing. Sammie later proceded to say "e read it, e read it" and later said the same thing about 10 more times, i think we read nemo about a hundred times between thursday and friday. I love that little girl. Dayton, didn't want to go home on wednesday so when his mom came in he dragged her over to the pillow we were sitting on to read with us. Gah! i just love them!
WELL then thursday night as i'm driving home, i just got really naseous and ended up throwing up for the next 24 hours. So friday i didn't go to work, and i called Miss Suzie because i felt super bad but she stated "we expect you to get sick the first month, you just got it really fast".
OKAYYY in other news.
Friendships ended, friendships on the rocks, friendships being mended.
i miss (in no particular order)
Krysta
Mel
Nikki
Jayk
Twin
Sarah
Erika
Eric
Matt
Stefan
Stephanie
the list could go on, i just miss having friends.
My mom realized about me ending certain friendships, and most of the friendships that had been ended were people she didn't see me being friends with for long, so i think her saying "we knew it was coming" was her way of trying to console me. She only asks where Nikki, Krysta, and Mel have been, and why i never hang out with them anymore, and frankly i really don't have much of an answer to that.
I realized I am a jealous girlfriend the kind of girlfriend i don't want to be. But I think lately it's come down to the fact that I don't like double standards, and when he tells me he's uncomfortable with me hanging out with my guy friends, I feel like i should tell him the same thing. But frankly I'm really not that uncomfortable, because he really only does hang out with a few girls, one i've met a few times and i've met her boyfriend... given he does live with this girl, and everyone said i should be uncomfortable about that, but whatever. the second girl, i was pretty good friends with her at one time, and i know in my heart she would never do anything like that to me, or to herself. blah.
i need friends, good ones, that text just to see what's up, to tell me about their day and ask me about mine, that want to hang out... that are just friends. any takers?
With one hand high
You'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one cares
No one cares
i'm trying to get out of my slump, and to anyone that was affected by my slump (Nikki, Twin, Jayk) I am truly sorry, and thank you for being a friend to me all the time you have been. But frankly i need you all now more than ever, to get myself back.
My puppy is incredibly smart and brings his food dish to me when it's empty. He's a good little dog. I love him.
I love life, and i love you.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine, everything,
everything will be alright, alright.
Well, I've been losing everything
You just don't see me anymore
I'll say goodbye
Since you left, she's a mess
She regrets all the things that she could've said
I worked monday, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday this past week, 9 hours a day, with an exception of wednesday being a ten hour day. I honestly just love my job. Sammie, got to school the same time as i did on wednesday, and she jumped out of her grandmas car and ran over to me with the biggest smile on her face and held up a book in the air and said "NEMO!!" and gave me the biggest hug. And i'm sorry, but that feeling is seriously so amazing. Walking in every day to kids running over to hug you and smiling, is amazing. Sammie later proceded to say "e read it, e read it" and later said the same thing about 10 more times, i think we read nemo about a hundred times between thursday and friday. I love that little girl. Dayton, didn't want to go home on wednesday so when his mom came in he dragged her over to the pillow we were sitting on to read with us. Gah! i just love them!
WELL then thursday night as i'm driving home, i just got really naseous and ended up throwing up for the next 24 hours. So friday i didn't go to work, and i called Miss Suzie because i felt super bad but she stated "we expect you to get sick the first month, you just got it really fast".
OKAYYY in other news.
Friendships ended, friendships on the rocks, friendships being mended.
i miss (in no particular order)
Krysta
Mel
Nikki
Jayk
Twin
Sarah
Erika
Eric
Matt
Stefan
Stephanie
the list could go on, i just miss having friends.
My mom realized about me ending certain friendships, and most of the friendships that had been ended were people she didn't see me being friends with for long, so i think her saying "we knew it was coming" was her way of trying to console me. She only asks where Nikki, Krysta, and Mel have been, and why i never hang out with them anymore, and frankly i really don't have much of an answer to that.
I realized I am a jealous girlfriend the kind of girlfriend i don't want to be. But I think lately it's come down to the fact that I don't like double standards, and when he tells me he's uncomfortable with me hanging out with my guy friends, I feel like i should tell him the same thing. But frankly I'm really not that uncomfortable, because he really only does hang out with a few girls, one i've met a few times and i've met her boyfriend... given he does live with this girl, and everyone said i should be uncomfortable about that, but whatever. the second girl, i was pretty good friends with her at one time, and i know in my heart she would never do anything like that to me, or to herself. blah.
i need friends, good ones, that text just to see what's up, to tell me about their day and ask me about mine, that want to hang out... that are just friends. any takers?
With one hand high
You'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one cares
No one cares
i'm trying to get out of my slump, and to anyone that was affected by my slump (Nikki, Twin, Jayk) I am truly sorry, and thank you for being a friend to me all the time you have been. But frankly i need you all now more than ever, to get myself back.
My puppy is incredibly smart and brings his food dish to me when it's empty. He's a good little dog. I love him.
I love life, and i love you.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine, everything,
everything will be alright, alright.