Cause we all wanna be big rock stars....
Yup, that song is STILL stuck in my head. Been a very busy, stressful week, but I suppose those need to happen every now and then to keep us grounded. Hanging out with Wayne has been fun, hope he doesn't move any time soon. Went on a date last night with Nate. I've been talking to him online for two weeks or so. His myspace is natekoolaid if anyone wants to give me input. We had a very nice time last night. We both had a bit to drink and it was late so I offered him my couch. You all know me well enough that he didn't sleep on the couch, I need to sleep with someone. It was so nice for a change, very good sleep, felt safe. I'm at the point where it could be almost anyone next to me. He is a nice guy though, thats a nice bonus. There are now lots of safe strong guys in my life, at this moment- Wayne was a Marine and Nate was in the Air Force, here with little antiwar me. The real test will be- will Nate call me again. That seems to be my problem.
My debt/money issues are just getting worse. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is curl up in bed and cry, with an occasional arm around me to let me know that someone kindasortamight care. I guess this shouldn't be a surprise to me though, about once a year I fall down my deep dark hole, guess this is my time, hopefully I will make it out. If only Wayne would stop bitting me! My ear is killing me! LOL He means well, which is more then most my friends, haven't even heard from Cballs in weeks, Ted hasn't returned any phone call and the rest are probably busy with Fringe and when that is over, I'll probably be in Simpatico, my LAST show! WooT!
My debt/money issues are just getting worse. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is curl up in bed and cry, with an occasional arm around me to let me know that someone kindasortamight care. I guess this shouldn't be a surprise to me though, about once a year I fall down my deep dark hole, guess this is my time, hopefully I will make it out. If only Wayne would stop bitting me! My ear is killing me! LOL He means well, which is more then most my friends, haven't even heard from Cballs in weeks, Ted hasn't returned any phone call and the rest are probably busy with Fringe and when that is over, I'll probably be in Simpatico, my LAST show! WooT!