Still here....
It sucks not having internet!! Hopefully I can get a laptop soon, yay for credit cards! There is a computer at the theatre, so thats where I am now. Last night they asked me to stage manage their next show, there goes the break I wanted. This one closes on the 1st of October and rehearsals for the next start on the third. On Monday I should find out if I got my promotion at work. Brian is planning a trip for us to Chicago this winter. In November he will visit me in Texas. Other then that, life is going. I've been so busy that I am getting sick from stress. Any my broken finger isnt helping any either but I'm dealing. Still poor as fuck. That promotion would really help. I guess thats about it. Lots of things regarding Brian. Straight men are confusing. One of the first things he asked of me was communication but I feel that I am not getting that from him. I think the other night, after a mind blowing BJ where he forgot his name, I think he said he hates kissing me. I dont know. I'm falling in love with him but I dont know what he wants. He has already told me he will never love again, so am I wasting my time? Should I just stay content? I dont know..... I just kinda want to get drunk one night and figure all this out. I took a bubble bath with dishsoap the other night. That helped, but ER was not the best background noise. Well, I should really go. My show is gonna start soon and I have to run it, and get another beer. My beeramid is really growing!!