(no subject)

[backseatdrama]

I'm sick of:
feeling like people are watching everything I do
like people are counting on me
like people are really influenced by what I do.
I'm sick of:
feeling irresponsible.
I'm sick of:
letting people down.
I'm sick of:
feeling like I HAVE to impress people.
I'm sick of:
feeling things for people I don't know.
I'm sick of:
not really knowing anybody.
I'm sick of:
everything around here and how everyone is changing to better suit the people they don't fucking know.
I'm sick of:
myself for being the person I've become.

But in all reality, I'm sick of myself for the person I haven't.
//[the person who drops everything in her life for you.]//
//[the person who, when she wants a break as if she's about to have a dramatic overdose, runs to you.. or well, doesn't. it depends on YOUR fucking mood.]//
//[the person who means nothing to no one, so when she feels she symbolizes as even the tiniest bit of importance to you, she's happy.]//
//[the person who is happy. period.]//
//{the person who is you.]//