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you frustrate me beyond all belief. i dont know what you want from me anymore. i feel like your playing games with my emotions. one minute its i love you and i want to be with you and the next its you want nohting to do with me and u turn off your feelings for me. im sorry but you cant just turn off feelings for someone. my feelings got lost somewhere. i somehow forgot what i had and now i dont have it anymore. i get that you need space and what not but you dont have to walk all over me while it happens. you call me to say hi. hearing your voice was the highlight of my week, then you want nothing to do with me. Im so fucking lost, and confused, and angry, and upset. im physically, mentally and emotinally exaused from this circle we keep running in. i hate how angry this whole thing makes me, i hate being angry from the time i wake up in the morning until i go to bed at night. i hate that my sister has to listen to me cry myself to sleep at night. i love her and im sorry that i couldnt show her that before that. but im not giving up on us. its never going to happen im going to keep trying.