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so last night I was pretty much violated. I don't know what to think of it. I said no and got away soon enough to where I did not have to use mace, but it's the closest I've even been to using it. I can't say much about it other than some guys really are creeps. He said he just had to talk to me, another guy was in the car in the front passenger seat, so I got in the back seat with him. I know what your thinking, yea it was a bad idea, but there was another guy in the car I didn't think he would try and pull anything. But he didn't want to talk. He tried to get his hand up my shirt, he tried to get his stuff out of his pants, and later he tried to push my head down. I jumped outta the car, and was like what are you doing? I don't understand guys. He didn't even really know me, and it was just really gross that he was willing to do that with someone else in the car. He just wanted my body. I'm really just kinda jaded. I don't know how to feel about this. By the end he made it feel like it was my fault. I should've known better, I mean he's 23. He stopped when I said stop, so he didn't really do anything wrong. I just don't understand why he thought I would do something like that with him. Why he thought what he was doing was okay. Do I look easy or something? I don't think I do. I dunno, I dunno. I'm just weirded out.