Fic: Healing the Damage Chapter 1
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Trapped inside his own mind Ianto curled up into the smallest ball he could be as the voices and memories of those who died at Torchwood One mixed with the new voices and memories he acquired during his time with the cannibals, his mind could not handle all the pain and suffering and as his mental shields shattered fully Ianto retreated deep into his mind trying to preserve what was left of his sanity. He could feel a distant echo that was Jack trying to reach out to him, to call him back from the depths of his mind, and as much as Ianto wanted to reach out to Jack but he couldn't their bond was buried under all the pain and fear, he was lost in a sea without his anchor and Ianto had no idea how he would find his way back.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">A small whimper escaped Ianto's lips as he curled deeper into himself, the voices and memories around him getting stronger and stronger until he felt them overwhelm everything and his last thoughts were towards Jack, even though he was sure his mate wouldn’t hear them they offered his a form of comfort, 'Jack, I'm sorry.'
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Jack jolted awake as he heard Ianto's fragile thought drift along their bond and he immediately pulled his mate closer and brushed his mind against Ianto's and he forced back a choked sob when he got nothing, Ianto’s mind was completely cut off from his mind and the link they shared as silent.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">"Ianto, please, come back to me. Don't leave me here alone without you. I don't know how to survive without you, I need you Ianto. I thought I was alone when the Doctor left without me and then when I learned Rose had been lost at the fall of Torchwood One, but I was wrong, because even if I didn't know it at the time I had you waiting for me. And now Ianto, that I've have you in my life and our bond I feel whole and if you don't recover from this, than I don't think I'm going to survive, I'll be dead inside without you." Jack knew if Ianto didn't come back to him, he would be good as dead himself, he wouldn't live without his bond mate; the grief would kill his soul.
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"I should have gotten there so much sooner." Caden murmured under his breath as he paced back and forth, running his hands through his raven locks with a frustrated sigh. "My prince is injured and you, you could have been lost to me." Caden looked so broken as he stared at Tosh.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">From her spot on the bed Tosh looked at her lover with knowing eyes and a sad smile on her face. "It wasn't your fault, none of us knew that there would have been cannibals out there and no one could have predicted that Ianto's mental shields would have failed completely as he destroyed those monsters minds." Tosh whispered soothingly as she climbed to her feet and wrapped her arms around her mate's waist.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Caden shuddered into her touch. "Then why do I feel like such a failure?" He asked in a broken voice.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">"The same reason that I do. I was suppose to protect Ianto, I knew that was why Jack had assigned me to go with Ianto, not just because Gwen wouldn't have Ianto's back or leaving Gwen and Owen alone would result in one of their deaths, but because Jack trusted me to keep Ianto safe and I let Ianto get captured. I let him sacrifice himself for me; I carry just as much blame as you do." Tosh felt her own tears beginning to fall.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Turning in her embrace Caden brought Tosh into his arms. "Hey it wasn't your fault, and yes I get that was the point you were trying to make. Right now we can only hope that Jack can bring Ianto back to us."
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Tosh clung to Caden's words with hope, if anyone could save Ianto it would be Jack.
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Estelle Cole had considered Ianto Jones from the moment they met, when Jack brought him as a his guest to one of her lectures and she felt honoured that Ianto would consider her close enough to let her in on his most guarded secret that he was not only an alien but an alien prince hiding from his crazy mad for power uncle, it sounded like a fantasy story come to life.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">'But given that I have an alien roommate and have met fairies, nothing seems that strange to me anymore.' Georgia">Estelle could see the tension rolling off of Kathy in waves, there was a distinct look in her eyes that screamed she needed to shot someone. "I'm sure that Ianto is going to be okay, Jack will do everything in his power to help him, and I don't think that Jack would survive if he lost Ianto."
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Kathy knew that Estelle had a point; it still didn't mean that she didn't want to shoot someone. "You know at first I didn't think Jack would be good enough for Ianto, I didn't want my prince tied down to some playboy who wouldn't treat him that he was just a fling, then I saw them together, I saw the devotion that Jack was offering Ianto and I realised that I was wrong. Now Ianto's mind has shattered and Jack's the only one who can help him and I just feel so helpless." Kathy admitted in a soft voice.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Estelle placed a comforting hand on Kathy's shoulder. "I understand, I feel that way as well. Ianto is a special man and I wish there was something I could do to help him heal, but right now the one he needs is Jack and if I know Jack there is nothing that will tear him from Ianto's side."
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Kathy knew that Estelle was right that right now the best person to help Ianto was Jack, as much as it pained her to admit it, she had always did everything in her power to keep her prince safe but in the end she had failed. ‘It’s all up to you Jack, you better make sure my Prince is alright or nothing will save Gwen Cooper from my wraith.’ Kathy had never been Gwen’s biggest fan but she had put up with her but now she had crossed a line that Kathy would never be able to forgive, but not just Gwen but herself as well, she had failed her prince in his time of need. “I know all of this and I thank you for trying to make me feel better but I still can’t help but feel as if I had failed in my duty.”
It was true that Estelle couldn’t full understand what Kathy was feeling; she wasn’t a warrior or solider but she did know what it felt like letting a friend down. She knew that all the words in the world wouldn’t make a difference to Kathy until she heard them from Ianto himself. ‘Please come back to us soon Ianto, I don’t think you understand just what you mean to so many and how much they rely on you.’ It wasn’t just Jack and Ianto that she was worried about but how Ianto’s injuries would affect those who truly cared about the Welshman.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Gwen Cooper was not happy; despite the fact that she was currently getting all the free drinks she could possible want, with a flirty smile she could have an man she wanted, she just couldn’t believe that Jack had once again chosen that… that thing over her! ‘How can I save Jack from Ianto’s control when I’m not even a part of Torchwood anymore? It won’t last, I know it Jack needs me far too much for this to last long, not even Ianto’s mind control over Jack will be enough to stop our love.’ She knew that sooner or later Jack would come to his sense, only this time she wouldn’t have Rhys to keep her company until Jack came to his sense.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">‘And who the bloody hell does Rhys Williams think he is? Dumping me? I was the best thing that ever happened to him!’ Georgia">Gwen couldn’t believe that Rhys suddenly grew a backbone, that just wasn’t supposed to happen, he was suppose to wait on her hand and foot, made sure her every need was met. “No it’s better this way; I don’t want anything to do with that thing.” Gwen muttered under her breath as she shivered in disgust at the thought that she had been involved with an alien. ‘Thank goodness I found out before I actually went further with Rhys? I couldn’t even begin to image having his child.’ Not that Gwen had ever planned on being a mother that had never been in the cards for her, not that she had informed Rhys of that but she thought it would have been obvious, she didn’t settle for less than she deserved.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">No Gwen was sure that her life was going to be much better without Rhys and there was nothing standing in the way of her and Jack being together. ‘Once I freed Jack from Ianto’s control Jack and I will start our lives together, he will restate me as second-in-command and will settle down and start our family.’ Yes Gwen knew that once she freed Jack he would be hers and she would happily have Jack’s children they would serve as proof of Jack’s love and commitment to her and her alone. ‘And it’s begun if they are right them Ianto’s mind has shattered then his control over Jack has no doubt weakened, all I need to do is finish freeing Jack and then he will be mine.’ Still she knew she wouldn't be welcomed at home, a pout graced Gwen's face, she was actually going to have to look for a place to living until she and Jack got together and found their own home where they would raise their family.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Hidden in the shadows of the bar a lone figure studied Gwen a smirk tugging at their lips. "Oh this is going to be almost too easy, the hurt and rage poured off the woman, and the need for revenge was at the forefront of her mind, oh yes she was perfect.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Grasping her glass the blond made her move. “You look like you could use a few more drinks and something a lot stronger as well as someone to share your problems with.”
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Blinking Gwen watched as the rather pretty blond woman seated herself across from her. She wanted to be alone and as she opened her mouth to tell the woman to get lost.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">A voice whispered in Gwen’s mind and just like that the urge to tell the woman off faded as she put her sweetest smile. “Sure I would love the company. I’m Gwen Cooper.” She offered her hand to the woman.
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mso-fareast-language:EN-CA;mso-bidi-language:AR-SA">“Mary,” the blond purred slipping her hand into Gwen’s, “and I can tell you Gwen that we are going to be very good friends.” .
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Trapped inside his own mind Ianto curled up into the smallest ball he could be as the voices and memories of those who died at Torchwood One mixed with the new voices and memories he acquired during his time with the cannibals, his mind could not handle all the pain and suffering and as his mental shields shattered fully Ianto retreated deep into his mind trying to preserve what was left of his sanity. He could feel a distant echo that was Jack trying to reach out to him, to call him back from the depths of his mind, and as much as Ianto wanted to reach out to Jack but he couldn't their bond was buried under all the pain and fear, he was lost in a sea without his anchor and Ianto had no idea how he would find his way back.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">A small whimper escaped Ianto's lips as he curled deeper into himself, the voices and memories around him getting stronger and stronger until he felt them overwhelm everything and his last thoughts were towards Jack, even though he was sure his mate wouldn’t hear them they offered his a form of comfort, 'Jack, I'm sorry.'
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Jack jolted awake as he heard Ianto's fragile thought drift along their bond and he immediately pulled his mate closer and brushed his mind against Ianto's and he forced back a choked sob when he got nothing, Ianto’s mind was completely cut off from his mind and the link they shared as silent.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">"Ianto, please, come back to me. Don't leave me here alone without you. I don't know how to survive without you, I need you Ianto. I thought I was alone when the Doctor left without me and then when I learned Rose had been lost at the fall of Torchwood One, but I was wrong, because even if I didn't know it at the time I had you waiting for me. And now Ianto, that I've have you in my life and our bond I feel whole and if you don't recover from this, than I don't think I'm going to survive, I'll be dead inside without you." Jack knew if Ianto didn't come back to him, he would be good as dead himself, he wouldn't live without his bond mate; the grief would kill his soul.
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"I should have gotten there so much sooner." Caden murmured under his breath as he paced back and forth, running his hands through his raven locks with a frustrated sigh. "My prince is injured and you, you could have been lost to me." Caden looked so broken as he stared at Tosh.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">From her spot on the bed Tosh looked at her lover with knowing eyes and a sad smile on her face. "It wasn't your fault, none of us knew that there would have been cannibals out there and no one could have predicted that Ianto's mental shields would have failed completely as he destroyed those monsters minds." Tosh whispered soothingly as she climbed to her feet and wrapped her arms around her mate's waist.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Caden shuddered into her touch. "Then why do I feel like such a failure?" He asked in a broken voice.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">"The same reason that I do. I was suppose to protect Ianto, I knew that was why Jack had assigned me to go with Ianto, not just because Gwen wouldn't have Ianto's back or leaving Gwen and Owen alone would result in one of their deaths, but because Jack trusted me to keep Ianto safe and I let Ianto get captured. I let him sacrifice himself for me; I carry just as much blame as you do." Tosh felt her own tears beginning to fall.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Turning in her embrace Caden brought Tosh into his arms. "Hey it wasn't your fault, and yes I get that was the point you were trying to make. Right now we can only hope that Jack can bring Ianto back to us."
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Tosh clung to Caden's words with hope, if anyone could save Ianto it would be Jack.
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Estelle Cole had considered Ianto Jones from the moment they met, when Jack brought him as a his guest to one of her lectures and she felt honoured that Ianto would consider her close enough to let her in on his most guarded secret that he was not only an alien but an alien prince hiding from his crazy mad for power uncle, it sounded like a fantasy story come to life.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">'But given that I have an alien roommate and have met fairies, nothing seems that strange to me anymore.' Georgia">Estelle could see the tension rolling off of Kathy in waves, there was a distinct look in her eyes that screamed she needed to shot someone. "I'm sure that Ianto is going to be okay, Jack will do everything in his power to help him, and I don't think that Jack would survive if he lost Ianto."
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Kathy knew that Estelle had a point; it still didn't mean that she didn't want to shoot someone. "You know at first I didn't think Jack would be good enough for Ianto, I didn't want my prince tied down to some playboy who wouldn't treat him that he was just a fling, then I saw them together, I saw the devotion that Jack was offering Ianto and I realised that I was wrong. Now Ianto's mind has shattered and Jack's the only one who can help him and I just feel so helpless." Kathy admitted in a soft voice.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Estelle placed a comforting hand on Kathy's shoulder. "I understand, I feel that way as well. Ianto is a special man and I wish there was something I could do to help him heal, but right now the one he needs is Jack and if I know Jack there is nothing that will tear him from Ianto's side."
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Kathy knew that Estelle was right that right now the best person to help Ianto was Jack, as much as it pained her to admit it, she had always did everything in her power to keep her prince safe but in the end she had failed. ‘It’s all up to you Jack, you better make sure my Prince is alright or nothing will save Gwen Cooper from my wraith.’ Kathy had never been Gwen’s biggest fan but she had put up with her but now she had crossed a line that Kathy would never be able to forgive, but not just Gwen but herself as well, she had failed her prince in his time of need. “I know all of this and I thank you for trying to make me feel better but I still can’t help but feel as if I had failed in my duty.”
It was true that Estelle couldn’t full understand what Kathy was feeling; she wasn’t a warrior or solider but she did know what it felt like letting a friend down. She knew that all the words in the world wouldn’t make a difference to Kathy until she heard them from Ianto himself. ‘Please come back to us soon Ianto, I don’t think you understand just what you mean to so many and how much they rely on you.’ It wasn’t just Jack and Ianto that she was worried about but how Ianto’s injuries would affect those who truly cared about the Welshman.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Gwen Cooper was not happy; despite the fact that she was currently getting all the free drinks she could possible want, with a flirty smile she could have an man she wanted, she just couldn’t believe that Jack had once again chosen that… that thing over her! ‘How can I save Jack from Ianto’s control when I’m not even a part of Torchwood anymore? It won’t last, I know it Jack needs me far too much for this to last long, not even Ianto’s mind control over Jack will be enough to stop our love.’ She knew that sooner or later Jack would come to his sense, only this time she wouldn’t have Rhys to keep her company until Jack came to his sense.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">‘And who the bloody hell does Rhys Williams think he is? Dumping me? I was the best thing that ever happened to him!’ Georgia">Gwen couldn’t believe that Rhys suddenly grew a backbone, that just wasn’t supposed to happen, he was suppose to wait on her hand and foot, made sure her every need was met. “No it’s better this way; I don’t want anything to do with that thing.” Gwen muttered under her breath as she shivered in disgust at the thought that she had been involved with an alien. ‘Thank goodness I found out before I actually went further with Rhys? I couldn’t even begin to image having his child.’ Not that Gwen had ever planned on being a mother that had never been in the cards for her, not that she had informed Rhys of that but she thought it would have been obvious, she didn’t settle for less than she deserved.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">No Gwen was sure that her life was going to be much better without Rhys and there was nothing standing in the way of her and Jack being together. ‘Once I freed Jack from Ianto’s control Jack and I will start our lives together, he will restate me as second-in-command and will settle down and start our family.’ Yes Gwen knew that once she freed Jack he would be hers and she would happily have Jack’s children they would serve as proof of Jack’s love and commitment to her and her alone. ‘And it’s begun if they are right them Ianto’s mind has shattered then his control over Jack has no doubt weakened, all I need to do is finish freeing Jack and then he will be mine.’ Still she knew she wouldn't be welcomed at home, a pout graced Gwen's face, she was actually going to have to look for a place to living until she and Jack got together and found their own home where they would raise their family.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Hidden in the shadows of the bar a lone figure studied Gwen a smirk tugging at their lips. "Oh this is going to be almost too easy, the hurt and rage poured off the woman, and the need for revenge was at the forefront of her mind, oh yes she was perfect.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Grasping her glass the blond made her move. “You look like you could use a few more drinks and something a lot stronger as well as someone to share your problems with.”
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">Blinking Gwen watched as the rather pretty blond woman seated herself across from her. She wanted to be alone and as she opened her mouth to tell the woman to get lost.
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mso-bidi-font-family:Georgia">A voice whispered in Gwen’s mind and just like that the urge to tell the woman off faded as she put her sweetest smile. “Sure I would love the company. I’m Gwen Cooper.” She offered her hand to the woman.
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mso-fareast-language:EN-CA;mso-bidi-language:AR-SA">“Mary,” the blond purred slipping her hand into Gwen’s, “and I can tell you Gwen that we are going to be very good friends.” .