Get Me Through This.
i want to scream. i want to scream and kick things and punch things and run away and start over.
i am very stressed out right now. i have a huge psych exam tomorrow and a precalc quiz to study for. i have a paper to write about a philosophical question from the matrix. have i mentioned i've never seen the matrix? we started to watch it in class, but i didn't get to see the whole thing/ oh yea, so david told me to write about whether or not i know things are real. how can he make an assignment based on something that not everyone is knowledgable on and especially if he doesn't give us the time to watch it? honestly, this puts me between a rock and a hard place. like i have time to rent and watch movie with everything else.
i still have to write a stupid philosophy research paper on david hume and then come up with a philosophical idea i want o refute/agree with and write a paper on that plus prepare for a presentation. not to mention the huge research paper for advanced comp-- i'm only finished with one of my sources and i need to find at least ten more. oh, and i need to read another shakespeare play and write a paper about that too. i don't have time for this b/c i have to work a shitty ass job. i hate it; i feel like crying every time i go in and crying while i'm there and crying when i get home. i tell my mom i hate it and want to quit, but she tells me to stick with it until i transfer somewhere else. but i can't take it.
it's so hard to carry 18 credits and work 30 hr work weeks. i thought i'd be able to handle it, but it's honestly harder than i thought it would be. i'm buckling down, budgeting my time, and still i can't get everything done b/c there's too much to do and everyone is making it impossible. and there's no one else i know that's doing the same thing. less credits, no job, and they still find something to bitch about. maybe it would be easier if i didn't have to play nurse with my dad and come whenever he beckons and i could actually get my studying done. maybe it would be easier if i didn't have to work an 8 hour shift today.
what makes it worse is that i can't vent my anger. as soon as i think someone is willing to listen, they start talking about their own problems-- which honestly wouldn't be so bad if theirs were worse. but they're not. and it frustrates me even more. i don't care about your problems because they are insignificant. i don't care about you when you don't care about me. you aggrivate me and i can't stand you right now.
i'm so stressed out right now, and this is so pathetic. i should be able to handle this, but i can't. it drives me crazy that i can't control this. i'm afraid i'm going to blow up and regret it. i wish i could get away for just a day, but that won't be happening anytime soon. i just need to relax.
i am very stressed out right now. i have a huge psych exam tomorrow and a precalc quiz to study for. i have a paper to write about a philosophical question from the matrix. have i mentioned i've never seen the matrix? we started to watch it in class, but i didn't get to see the whole thing/ oh yea, so david told me to write about whether or not i know things are real. how can he make an assignment based on something that not everyone is knowledgable on and especially if he doesn't give us the time to watch it? honestly, this puts me between a rock and a hard place. like i have time to rent and watch movie with everything else.
i still have to write a stupid philosophy research paper on david hume and then come up with a philosophical idea i want o refute/agree with and write a paper on that plus prepare for a presentation. not to mention the huge research paper for advanced comp-- i'm only finished with one of my sources and i need to find at least ten more. oh, and i need to read another shakespeare play and write a paper about that too. i don't have time for this b/c i have to work a shitty ass job. i hate it; i feel like crying every time i go in and crying while i'm there and crying when i get home. i tell my mom i hate it and want to quit, but she tells me to stick with it until i transfer somewhere else. but i can't take it.
it's so hard to carry 18 credits and work 30 hr work weeks. i thought i'd be able to handle it, but it's honestly harder than i thought it would be. i'm buckling down, budgeting my time, and still i can't get everything done b/c there's too much to do and everyone is making it impossible. and there's no one else i know that's doing the same thing. less credits, no job, and they still find something to bitch about. maybe it would be easier if i didn't have to play nurse with my dad and come whenever he beckons and i could actually get my studying done. maybe it would be easier if i didn't have to work an 8 hour shift today.
what makes it worse is that i can't vent my anger. as soon as i think someone is willing to listen, they start talking about their own problems-- which honestly wouldn't be so bad if theirs were worse. but they're not. and it frustrates me even more. i don't care about your problems because they are insignificant. i don't care about you when you don't care about me. you aggrivate me and i can't stand you right now.
i'm so stressed out right now, and this is so pathetic. i should be able to handle this, but i can't. it drives me crazy that i can't control this. i'm afraid i'm going to blow up and regret it. i wish i could get away for just a day, but that won't be happening anytime soon. i just need to relax.