SHUT UP! YOU'RE AN IDIOT!
When analyzing other people's lives, I've come to realize how stupid people can be sometimes. On the other hand, I guess it's a lot easier to solve other people's problems when you're "outside of the box."
I'm extremely bored with life, I hate falling into routine. It scares me. I'm beginning to see I have a very awkward problem. I hate drama...and seeing people bicker over stupid shit just makes me sick, but then again I want a relationship (and everything that goes with it). And I love my friends to death, but at the same time I feel like I've never been more lonely in my life.
I've made so many friends this past year...but to be honest, I'm only 100% certain of a handful of them. 100% certain that they are my true friends, and that they'd always be there for me. I'm not saying the people that I'm not 100% sure about aren't my friends...but it's just a different kind of friendship. It doesn't feel the same at all. I guess I just miss how things with my friends were a few years ago. Things were completely different. Back then you knew everyone loved each other so much, it was just mutual between everyone. Now days you have no idea who the fuck is your real friend. People will act like they would take a bullet for you, and then turn around and say the meanest shit about you. I'm not saying it's been done to me...it could of been? But I know for sure that I've seen it happen millions of times.
I look ahead to what could be in the future for me,[like where I'll be, what I'll be doing], and I really don't see anything. It's sad really. I just want something new....
I feel like even after I'm moved into my new house, and I really start a new life with a job, paying bills, and all that jazz...that shit isn't going to change. I'm going to be working my ass off to continue my boring ass life. An occasional party doesn't do it for me anymore. Sure they're fun but it's like...a one night thing. Not something that will keep me interested for a while.
Alright I'm done. Cya.
I'm extremely bored with life, I hate falling into routine. It scares me. I'm beginning to see I have a very awkward problem. I hate drama...and seeing people bicker over stupid shit just makes me sick, but then again I want a relationship (and everything that goes with it). And I love my friends to death, but at the same time I feel like I've never been more lonely in my life.
I've made so many friends this past year...but to be honest, I'm only 100% certain of a handful of them. 100% certain that they are my true friends, and that they'd always be there for me. I'm not saying the people that I'm not 100% sure about aren't my friends...but it's just a different kind of friendship. It doesn't feel the same at all. I guess I just miss how things with my friends were a few years ago. Things were completely different. Back then you knew everyone loved each other so much, it was just mutual between everyone. Now days you have no idea who the fuck is your real friend. People will act like they would take a bullet for you, and then turn around and say the meanest shit about you. I'm not saying it's been done to me...it could of been? But I know for sure that I've seen it happen millions of times.
I look ahead to what could be in the future for me,[like where I'll be, what I'll be doing], and I really don't see anything. It's sad really. I just want something new....
I feel like even after I'm moved into my new house, and I really start a new life with a job, paying bills, and all that jazz...that shit isn't going to change. I'm going to be working my ass off to continue my boring ass life. An occasional party doesn't do it for me anymore. Sure they're fun but it's like...a one night thing. Not something that will keep me interested for a while.
Alright I'm done. Cya.