beyond the infinite
Things have been extremely interesting as usual. events are happening in my life so quickly that its hard to keep up sometime and document. winter 08 was filled with contemplation, love, understanding, and heartbreak. my new friend Freedom keeps me going though. talk about a beacon of light. here is a picture of him.
so basically ian, spencer, jacob, and i got back to Atlanta in August to gather our belongings to go back to the farm we were staying at in Oregon but through a series of unfortunate events we came to realize that the farm was not an option anymore. bum out at first but we were presented with an even better opportunity. we met a woman named Shannon who just recently purchased an acre and a half of land in candler park on the lake claire community land trust. she just so happened to need people to act as a "village" on her property to take care of different tasks such as taking care of animals ( goats, chickens, ect ) and to build different things to establish a better sense of community. the option was undeniable because of studio space that is located in the house we are staying in. this studio enabled us to finish writing our next full length album. Light. here are some pictures of the place.
this is spencer and i's bed room
so my living situation is prime right now. im making money by working at a day care that Shannon ( the owner of the property ) runs. the afterschool program is called Soulshine. i take care of kindergarden and pre schoolers every day from 2-630. never in my life did i ever think i would be in a position to help children out but as each day goes by it makes more and more sense. the children are helping me open up to what really makes me happy as well as helping me learn more about love.
speaking of love. ive been going through a process over the past month and a half trying to reevaluate my idea of what love exactly is. at the stage im in right now, love is an idea. nothing more. a very important idea though. i got a little punk'd this past winter. i had been chasing a girl since 2004 because of what i believed to be love at first sight. grandiose thoughts were built up in my head for years creating what was a perfect union. or what i thought was going to be a perfect union. i finally met this girl face to face in september and things were smooth sailing for a bit and i thought i was going to be set for a long time. but right when you think you have a hold on something it gets taken from you. not sure why, or how. but it happens. cant have light without darkness. sooo, i cant be to angry about the whole thing cause thats not my style. im learning how to harness that energy on not just one person but the entire planet. the planet needs love to survive. and shes dying right now. its all for the art. ive come to realize that every single thing that happens to me is all governed by a higher eschaton whose sole purpose is to invoke art. my body is nothing, my sense of self is nothing, my friends are nothing. but the art we make is everything.
i can feel my spirituality evolving daily. its very interesting. it seems that the less i try to reach a state of enlightenment the quicker it comes. sounds paradoxical. it most definitely is. it has gotten to a point though where with everything i am presented with i learn much more than could be read in a book or seen on a screen or even seen in my own head. synchronicity has helped with that. i just follow them. i look around and see how things are placed and what is said by others and i live my life accordingly. the whole idea of Choice throws me through loops all the time too. im trying to find a way to extinguish that idea from my mind and my life. if i go thorough life and keep the idea of love in my head than i will be guided to it. ive accepted that i will never know whats going on because if i knew what was going on then i wouldnt be having any fun. balance and stasis is coming nearer every day though. im happy with good situations because they are good, and i am happy with bad situations because i know that they are tests to help me grow into my full being......which is no being.
all im really saying is.....save the american economy..legalize marijuana. nothing makes more sense to me. hah.
Donovan
Oregon
Beauty
Lily
Taoism
Here is a little Irreversible picture update. if anyone is interested...we have a show on April 1st at Lennys.
This guy Alan Moore who wrote Watchmen is a genius. he is talking about how humanity is going from a liquid state to a gaseous state. basically what hes saying is that with the exponential increase in events and consciousness the human mind is like boiling water and our minds will eventually turn into a free floating mist. blah blah blah
so basically ian, spencer, jacob, and i got back to Atlanta in August to gather our belongings to go back to the farm we were staying at in Oregon but through a series of unfortunate events we came to realize that the farm was not an option anymore. bum out at first but we were presented with an even better opportunity. we met a woman named Shannon who just recently purchased an acre and a half of land in candler park on the lake claire community land trust. she just so happened to need people to act as a "village" on her property to take care of different tasks such as taking care of animals ( goats, chickens, ect ) and to build different things to establish a better sense of community. the option was undeniable because of studio space that is located in the house we are staying in. this studio enabled us to finish writing our next full length album. Light. here are some pictures of the place.
this is spencer and i's bed room
so my living situation is prime right now. im making money by working at a day care that Shannon ( the owner of the property ) runs. the afterschool program is called Soulshine. i take care of kindergarden and pre schoolers every day from 2-630. never in my life did i ever think i would be in a position to help children out but as each day goes by it makes more and more sense. the children are helping me open up to what really makes me happy as well as helping me learn more about love.
speaking of love. ive been going through a process over the past month and a half trying to reevaluate my idea of what love exactly is. at the stage im in right now, love is an idea. nothing more. a very important idea though. i got a little punk'd this past winter. i had been chasing a girl since 2004 because of what i believed to be love at first sight. grandiose thoughts were built up in my head for years creating what was a perfect union. or what i thought was going to be a perfect union. i finally met this girl face to face in september and things were smooth sailing for a bit and i thought i was going to be set for a long time. but right when you think you have a hold on something it gets taken from you. not sure why, or how. but it happens. cant have light without darkness. sooo, i cant be to angry about the whole thing cause thats not my style. im learning how to harness that energy on not just one person but the entire planet. the planet needs love to survive. and shes dying right now. its all for the art. ive come to realize that every single thing that happens to me is all governed by a higher eschaton whose sole purpose is to invoke art. my body is nothing, my sense of self is nothing, my friends are nothing. but the art we make is everything.
i can feel my spirituality evolving daily. its very interesting. it seems that the less i try to reach a state of enlightenment the quicker it comes. sounds paradoxical. it most definitely is. it has gotten to a point though where with everything i am presented with i learn much more than could be read in a book or seen on a screen or even seen in my own head. synchronicity has helped with that. i just follow them. i look around and see how things are placed and what is said by others and i live my life accordingly. the whole idea of Choice throws me through loops all the time too. im trying to find a way to extinguish that idea from my mind and my life. if i go thorough life and keep the idea of love in my head than i will be guided to it. ive accepted that i will never know whats going on because if i knew what was going on then i wouldnt be having any fun. balance and stasis is coming nearer every day though. im happy with good situations because they are good, and i am happy with bad situations because i know that they are tests to help me grow into my full being......which is no being.
all im really saying is.....save the american economy..legalize marijuana. nothing makes more sense to me. hah.
Donovan
Oregon
Beauty
Lily
Taoism
Here is a little Irreversible picture update. if anyone is interested...we have a show on April 1st at Lennys.
This guy Alan Moore who wrote Watchmen is a genius. he is talking about how humanity is going from a liquid state to a gaseous state. basically what hes saying is that with the exponential increase in events and consciousness the human mind is like boiling water and our minds will eventually turn into a free floating mist. blah blah blah