meh
wow i havent updated this old thing in ages. guess i dont have much time for the computer anymore, although i have plenty of time to stare at my cieling in boredom. things have been going fairly well for me not enough to say im completly happy. ive been going out with my boyfriend chris for quite a while now. hes changed my perspective on lots of things. i love him a bunch. ive basically quit smoking pot, drinking, and doing coke. (maybe ive quit coke cus i havent had the money for it). i still seem to miserable and depressed though, those waves of melancholy sneek up on ya every once in a while. i hate being this age cus i dont know what i want and im not old enough to do or decide what i want it just feels like a fucking trap. the world is so depressing just the way things work in general. the war, capitilism, and a bunch of ignorant americans who seek no change. no one gives a shit about the environment or the animals. jesus christ i sound like some fucking hippie. i dont know. lifes a bore and it seems to pointless how much longer can i take it? well as long as some one cares thats some motivation.
-abby
-abby