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So my apartment is finally starting to not look like the nightmare from hell that it has for the past few months. There are actually places where you can walk completely unencumbered.
I leave for Florida in two days. That's so crazy. I haven't even really recovered my energy from the cruise. On the up side, having to get up so early and also being physically exhausted a lot has pretty much fixed my sleep schedule, so that's nice. I'm able to go to bed around 2am, and get up before noon, which is just plain rare for me. I should work out well for Florida too, though, since Josh and Chad tend to be early risers. I don't want them ditching me every day.
Last night I went to the first Spectrum meeting of the year. I was waffling about it all day, but I knew that a lot of people that I hadn't seen in quite a while would be there, and it's a social event which is nice, so I was pretty well decided to go when I got a text from Camdin, telling me I should go, so that made it official.
It was a good time, but also a little bittersweet. First, it's kinda sad that I'm not still in school. I mean, I love not having classes, and I know that all those people are still my friends, but I still feel a little out of the loop. Also, it's sad to remember back to last year, and think how much things have changed, in terms of friendships and all that. I guess that's always gonna be true, though. This time next year, I'll probably be saying the same exact thing.
I was thinking about it though. How messed up everything got. Were we all wrong from the beginning? Should we never have all been friends in the first place? Did things genuinely just change? People grew apart, and all that? Or did we all get so bogged down in our own shit that we weren't able to give anyone else any room to fuck up?
I guess what I'm saying is: was all this for naught? Could we still all be friends, if we could just be a little more flexible?
I don't know. I do know that I'd rather be friends with people that not. But maybe not everyone feels that way. Although I know I'm not as close to some people as I was, I feel that I'm still friends with most of the people I was friends with at the beginning of last year, but that a lot of them don't like each other. I don't know what that says about me. Probably nothing good.
Anyhow, so Spectrum was fun, we did the traditional playing of the Queer Pictionary. I was in sort-of a rare mood, I guess a little high off of seeing everyone for the first time in a long time, and also from getting a dose of gay when I've been with thousands of straight people for 11 days. Not that there's anything wrong with that.
Afterward, people were going to Quedoba (sp?), and I went with Martin, Margaret, and Camdin, but Martin was really the only one who wanted Mexican food, and then when we walked in, he suddenly changed his mind. It was a little awkward, though, because there were people from Spectrum there, and I felt bad just leaving, when we didn't even really get a chance to say hi or anything. So, sorry about that.
Anyways, so, I still have a bunch of cleaning to do today, and I have to do laundry and then re-pack. And I'm getting a haircut, which should be exciting. So, I guess I'd better get off my ass and get to work.
I leave for Florida in two days. That's so crazy. I haven't even really recovered my energy from the cruise. On the up side, having to get up so early and also being physically exhausted a lot has pretty much fixed my sleep schedule, so that's nice. I'm able to go to bed around 2am, and get up before noon, which is just plain rare for me. I should work out well for Florida too, though, since Josh and Chad tend to be early risers. I don't want them ditching me every day.
Last night I went to the first Spectrum meeting of the year. I was waffling about it all day, but I knew that a lot of people that I hadn't seen in quite a while would be there, and it's a social event which is nice, so I was pretty well decided to go when I got a text from Camdin, telling me I should go, so that made it official.
It was a good time, but also a little bittersweet. First, it's kinda sad that I'm not still in school. I mean, I love not having classes, and I know that all those people are still my friends, but I still feel a little out of the loop. Also, it's sad to remember back to last year, and think how much things have changed, in terms of friendships and all that. I guess that's always gonna be true, though. This time next year, I'll probably be saying the same exact thing.
I was thinking about it though. How messed up everything got. Were we all wrong from the beginning? Should we never have all been friends in the first place? Did things genuinely just change? People grew apart, and all that? Or did we all get so bogged down in our own shit that we weren't able to give anyone else any room to fuck up?
I guess what I'm saying is: was all this for naught? Could we still all be friends, if we could just be a little more flexible?
I don't know. I do know that I'd rather be friends with people that not. But maybe not everyone feels that way. Although I know I'm not as close to some people as I was, I feel that I'm still friends with most of the people I was friends with at the beginning of last year, but that a lot of them don't like each other. I don't know what that says about me. Probably nothing good.
Anyhow, so Spectrum was fun, we did the traditional playing of the Queer Pictionary. I was in sort-of a rare mood, I guess a little high off of seeing everyone for the first time in a long time, and also from getting a dose of gay when I've been with thousands of straight people for 11 days. Not that there's anything wrong with that.
Afterward, people were going to Quedoba (sp?), and I went with Martin, Margaret, and Camdin, but Martin was really the only one who wanted Mexican food, and then when we walked in, he suddenly changed his mind. It was a little awkward, though, because there were people from Spectrum there, and I felt bad just leaving, when we didn't even really get a chance to say hi or anything. So, sorry about that.
Anyways, so, I still have a bunch of cleaning to do today, and I have to do laundry and then re-pack. And I'm getting a haircut, which should be exciting. So, I guess I'd better get off my ass and get to work.