I Will Protect You Chapter 5
parings: Jaemin/Minjae (main!), Minjaesu, Jaechun, Yunjae
rated: n-17 (smut, violence, psychological disorder, underage sex, incest)
genre: angst, drama, au
length: chaptered [on going]
( Chapter 1 )
( Chapter 2 )
( Chapter 3 )
( Chapter 4 )
Despite his past experiences when he simply couldn't control his anger - and he had destroyed his parent's home, Changmin didn't want to fuck it up again.
Kyuhyun's words seemed to whisper in his head "take a deep breath, get yourself together." But his situation was that he felt so frustrating to the point of losing control again, he felt the anger radiating from beneath his skin.
Why he was so pissed? Because Jaejoong had left him with a damn hard on? Or was it because his best friend was a jealous asshole who certainly didn't approve of his relationship with his older step brother? He was angry because Yoochun was hunging out with Jaejoong again? He sighed. Actually, it wasn't that.
"I am a freak," he murmured to the mirror. "A psychopathic monster."
Anger was his old company, never left him alone even when he was supposed to be happy.
Jaejoong was out there ... maybe he was fucking Yoochun ....
He grunted, desperately ... it was so hard to control himself to not punch the mirror. 'Junsu will think I'm a freak ... Jaejoong will think I'm a freak ...' he thought. Nobody ever understood ... Well, even if Kyu knew him so well was afraid of the monster in the mirror that Changmin recognized.
Most of his remedies had been in his room in a distant city. The life of troubled child had fallen behind since Changmin jumped over the window with a backpack and fled to any place where he couldn't hurt his parents and his brother anymore.
"I won't fuck it up ..." he whimpered, sitting on the bathroom floor, biting his left fist and jerking off with his right hand.
He was screwed. Perhaps it would be better to leave Junsu and Jaejoong's lifes before they got their pretty faces ruined. After having broken Kyuhyung's nose, Changmin would never forgive himself.
"One problem at a time, hyung ..." he remembered Kyuhyun's voice.
Changmin gasped and clenched his fingers around his cock painfully, whimpering. "I am not coming, I am not coming ..."
Jaejoong told him not to come, but it was so fucking hard with that vibrador in his asshole.
---
He went carefully into Junsu's room and didn't notice any movement.
"Junsu?"
His friend didn't answered, and Changmin wondered if he was asleep already. He was hoping to hear Junsu screaming at him, cursing him, telling him to get the hell out of his house, a slap maybe... but it didn't happend. He know it wasn't possible for his friend to be happy after catching his beloved crush fucking his bestfriend. Seeing Junsu jerking off because of it was really surprising but Changmin didn't expect that boy falling asleep that fast after such revelations.
He knew that Junsu was in love with Jaejoong and knew he was almost sickeningly jealous of his older brother, he could even see the result of that night the next day. He could almost hear Junsu telling him to disappear from his life.
Changmin focused his thoughts on Junsu's reaction - it was safer to keep his thoughts in that direction than thinking about Jaejoong, Yoochun and their other friends - thinking of that would make him dangerously jealous. He felt he was going to loose his mind, so insecure to pursue this line of reasoning without the help of his medication.
"That's why crazy people should be locked." He muttered to himself.
He wondered if Junsu would still be his friend the next day, if he should gather his few belongings and flee to the next town, getting away from him, from his older brother and from any cause trouble he would acuse if he stayed in that town.
Sometimes he just didn't wanted to live.
Junsu was his first friend after Kyuhyun, but Kyuhyun had an obligation to be his friend since he was his younger brother. Thinking about Kyu still hurt. 'He must be worried ... and relieved now that I am no longer a threaten to their physical safety. Kyu never told him this, but Changmin knew it was true.
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Jaejoong arrived almost two hours later. Changmin didn't question why - Jae always came at dawn when he went out with friends. He just narrowed his eyes and prayed that he was called by the teenager.
He had managed to came just twice - which was a amazing since he was a virgin and having a vibrating plug stuck in his ass for so long was so damn tempting. He should be congratulated for his hard work of trying not to come.
He was more than surprised however when Jae sneaked into the Junsu's bedroom instead of calling him out to the corridor and then to his own bedroom so they could finish what they started.
"What are you doing!?" Changmin hissed when he felt Jaejoong's soft hands gripping his half hard cock.
"I thought you deserve a sweet relief from this torture ... didn't you came?" Jaejoong said softly.
"Shhh! Junsu is sleeping!"
"Good"
"Jaejoong hyung, he will-"
"Stop talking if you're so afraid that he wakes up."
His hyung was insane?
Changmin sniffed the air but there was no smell of alcohol. 'You've gotta be kidding me.'
He was stronger than Jaejoong, why he just couldn't get that guy off him? Jaejoong was humping his butt and rubbing his hard cock against him, hardening his own half hard cock real fast.
Changmin moaned, biting the pillow to keep from making more noise when Jaejoong took off his pajamas and he noticed that the older boy was naked on him.
It was crazy.
"Hyung, what are you- JESUS ...."
Jaejoong giggled. "Jesus has nothing to do with it." He gently bit his neck and Changmin shook beneath him.
"Did you came while I was away?"
"Y-you-h was having fun too ..."
Jaejoong introduced a finger into the Changmin's puckered entrance and the boy gasped. The oldest licked his earlobe and whispered "who you think you are to point out what I did? How many times did you came?"
"T-Twice.... oh, God..."
Jaejoong withdrew his finger and turned Changmin's body, now they was facing each other. Despite the light coming from the hallway, the room was very dark, the oldest boy's silhuete was visible, but his face wasn't. "If you come twice,I will be comming tree times. Are you read?"
Changmin wasn't.
Jaejoong pulled the boys's knees up, exposing the vulnerability of Changmin who clung to the edges of his sleeping bag and tried not to moan loudly as he felt his hyung's warm tongue licking around his entrance. He felt the stabs of the plug inside him and it was hard not to come once more.
"I bet you're almost ready to take my cock into your asshole, look at that, all loosened up because the vibrator, what turn on, baby."
The boy looked at his best friend in his sleep, snoring softly in his blissful dream. 'Keep sleeping, Su' he asked quietly as he felt Jaejoong pulling the dildo from his ass and sticking his tongue inside him as he had done previously. 'Be cool, don't come...' he told to himself. 'I wanna lick his ass too' he thought.
"Oh my! All this pre cum... so yummi..." Jaejoong licked Changmin's cock,
"Hyung.. hyung, please...."
"Please what?"
"F-Fuck me, fuck me fuck me already, i'm beggin' please..."
Jaejoong began fingering him once again, but it wasn't enough, Changmin knew he was almost whimpering, but he couldn't help. "Hyung ..."
The eldest one then stuck a second finger. Yet. Not enough.
Three fingers.
"Hyung ... please ...." Changmin was drolling now.
Jaejoong chuckled and muttered. "I know, I know, it was just ... irresistible to tease you a little bit. I've been honry all the fucking day thinking of you sweetie ..."
Changmin groaned. "J-Just take me, you asshole ..."
Jaejoong laughed. "You are going to be a rough top, I can see ..." he stood between the legs of the boy. "And I can't wait."
"So let me fuck you bitch ..." Changmin replied. He just couldn't help it, Jaejoong was driving him crazy.
Jaejoong entered him slowly and said, "You have another lesson before u can fuck me sweetie."
Changmin opened his mouth to ask but whimpered softly as he felt something much thicker than the dildo and the long fingers of his hyung. Hurt. It hurt a lot more than he expected after so long with something inside loosening up his hole, yet the pain was fleeting. Jaejoong waited until his breathing returned to normal before start thrusting into him, stepping up the pace as Changmin began to moan louder. "Oh baby ... baby you're so fucking tight ..."
Jaejoong was fucking him merciless, even his abs was starting to burn, even so Changmin wanted more. More fricking, more impulse, Jaejoong was hitting the right spot, when he suddenly turned the tables, throwing himself on the older boy, knocking him in his sleeping bag, impaling himself in the other's cock and fucking himself harder.
"Come bitch, come inside me ..." the boy muttered just before coming in Jaejoong's chest. But he didn't stopped until the other firmly gripped his waist and come inside him whining obscenities.
Changmin's body collapsed beside Jaejoong's and he took a deep breath, exhausted. He couldn't believe what he had just done. He wanted to shout to the world 'I'm with Jaejoong, I had sex with Jaejoong hyung!' His chest was about to explode with pride and happiness, but at the same time, he had never felt so tired. Perhaps his hyung was a succubus that was feeding through his sexual energy, it didn't matter. He wanted to kiss the perfect face of his hyung and murmur, 'you know I'm in love with you?' but that would sound corny and pathetic, the guy beside him was too cool for that. He sighed resignedly.
"Are you sure you've never done this before?"
Changmin smirked, shyness forgotten by the heat of the moment. He was quite naked, tired and happy to care. "You just took my virginity, hyung."
"And ... you did very well, sweetie." Jaejoong bent down and kissed Changmin slower and deeper than he had done before. The boy didn't want to fool himself and said to himself 'calm down, he didn't mean to be romantic or nice.' He relaxed under that slow, sensual kiss, nothing would spoil that moment, not any depressing thought.
He grabbed Jaejoong's nape that pulled Changmin's sweaty body against his for a moment, before muttering. "Get up, I wanna see your face when you reach the climax once again, it is very dark in here."
"Oh, fuck hyung, we shouldn't have done that here ..." Actually Changmin concluded that he didn't really cared about it, even if he could lost his only friend - because if Junsu knew what they had done right beside him while he slept, the things between them would be ruined forever - he'd live up to that moment to touch Jaejoong and be touched by him.
Jaejoong stood up and extended his hand. "Come to my room, sweetie, I wanna see you with wide open legs on my bed."
Changmin moaned softly, it was amazing how he could harden his cock so fast. He ran naked into the hallway and closed the door carefully behind him.
---
In the dark, Junsu sobbed quietly, biting his pillow when he finally let the tears flow down his cheeks.
"This is so fucking unfair ..." he cried.
His cock was hard as stone, overlooked because Junsu thought that was nothing more humiliating situation than this: his brother and his best friend was fucking beside him and the jealousy and envy were devouring his heart, he was so fucking aroused that his dick had begun to ache.
He stuck three digits in his mouth and started jerking off, dipping his fingers into his asshole as he murmured Jaejoong's name, and Changmin groans were repeated in his head, he could give the world to have watched Changmin and Jaejoong fucking if at least the room wasn't so dark. He came, sobbing harder. Even though at present he was hating his best friend, his greatest desire was to join the other two were doing in the other room.
"I hate .... I hate .... I hate myself."
---
The following days were as common to Changmin that he felt trapped in another reality. Junsu that should at least suspect something, just seemed a little distracted and more silent than usual. He had just said "I think I'm getting sick" and gone to school with a slightly downcast face.
Changmin felt a weight on his conscience, but he decided to take a break so that his friend could express his weighed heart. He didn't want to think about that every time he thought Junsu would kick him out of his life. Junsu was his only friend.
On next Friday he was called to a conversation and sitting at his desk, Junsu murmured without looking in his eyes "I think our friendship ends here."
He needed no explanation. He thought it wasn't even because his affair with Jaejoong, the problem was that no matter when and where he would always be abandoned at the end. No one would be friends with a potential psychopath.
He felt that he was losing control again, the frustration was growing, letting him get insane in a few minutes, he could feel the first sparks of hatred inside him.
"That is it." he murmured softly.
Junsu looked at his fists and asked "do you wanna to hit me?"
"Yes."
"But you are still my friend?"
"I guess."
"You're just... angry?"
"Yes." Changmin felt his eyes fill with tears and his throat was tightening. The hate .... he couldn't hold on for long.
Junsu suddenly looked worried. He slowly stood up and muttered an apology, but couldn't get too close because Changmin pushed him hard and ran out, he just need to make someone bleed. It wasn't about being a bad person, he just carried that explosive feeling inside him, like a time bomb, and it was shameful that his friend see him in that state, feeling his overflowing rage. While he doesn't relieve his frustration and rage, there would be no way to feel better.
---
"Oh, man ... I still can't believe you got it." Jaejoong muttered irritably. He didn't even want to be there, he rather be sleeping in his om ... or enjoying Changmin's body. That boy was amazing in bed.
Yoochun laughed satisfied. "For you I would study up, I am serious." He hated school, but apparently he had given his best to overcome Jaejoong's grades.
"Dude," Jaejoong replied, "You should be studying to get good grades, not in order to win bets."
Yoochun took a sip of his drink and shrugged, his voice was barely audible at that nightclub. "The price was even better!"
Jaejoong rolled his eyes. It was better to do it soon or he would have Yoochun bothering him relentlessly for a long, long time. For some reason he didn't want to imagine Changmin knowing about that bet. 'We're just fucking, it wasn't like we are dating or something'... he thought, but that thought wasn't okay.
He took Yoochun's hand and dragged him to the exit, where the air was cooler and quieter.
"Okay, One kiss."
"A french kiss." Yoochun replied smiling.
"Aigoo! I got it!" Jaejoong chuckled - he couldn't stay angry with his friend - and gave him a light punch.
Yoochun put his hands on his waist and kissed him tenderly, it was sweet. He couldn't help but compare it to Changmin's wild kisses - it was like the youngest kid you wanted to convey a very important, almost desperate message and it made his heart beat faster; Yoochun kiss was just ... tender.
---
Changmin's hand was throbbing painfully. But he couldn't complain, if indeed he had broken his fingers in the face of that annoying guy who had dared to touch his ass when he had passed in front of a night club. It was better that he was hurt enough to not hurt other people as he had done in the past.
A flashback did stop him him for a second: a bloody body on the floor, a lifeless body. He squinted and shook his head, muttering, "I'm a monster."
He had promised never cause another death, even that controling his outbreaks of anger seemed impossible. 'I don't want to hurt people,' he repeated in his head like a mantra. And after he knocked out that guy a few blocks behind, he thought he was ready to return "home" - he had nowhere to go, since he had run away from home and even his younger brother Kyuhyun didn't knew where he was - and also he couldn't go back to Junsu's.
A movement to his left caught his attention. A couple kissing under a sodium lamp post. 'At least someone is having a nice evening.'
The two boys had the same height, and one of them was very pretty to be real. Changmin frowned and took a step forward. One of them looked a lot like ...
One of the boys, pale with black raven hair pulled back with some difficulty. "Yah! Yoochun! Enough!"
Yoochun sighed and let him go. "But it was so good ..."
"But its over." Jaejoong rolled his eyes and turned to enter the nightclub "I wanna drink some ..."
Changmin couldn't register the words that were being said or anything that had happened after that kiss. 'He is not mine ...' he knew, but at the same time, he knew better that was impossible to control himself when that blind hatred dominated his body, it was as if everything became red. Maybe ... maybe he couldn't fulfill his promise to never kill another person again.
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