huh...

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Last night was a very good night. very sleepy and slow, but revealing. Last night it was just me clayton and sophie. we danced, we sang, we movied, we chilled. and it was strange, cuase the entire night i listened to myself and the things that i was saying as if i were in the third person. a ghost, listening to the conversation in the room. I still saw the world from my perspective, but i heard it from another. I listened to myself and i felt strong, and intelligent and witty and it was nice. Long story short, i felt like i was listening to some one else. it was one of the most surreal and lucid experiances i have had. None of this wack ass dreams that i some times have or hallucinating when i'm high. Just experiancing pure time and becoming. I don't know how to describe it better then that. I heard a different voice,not tone/volume/etc, but a new character filled with confidence and understanding.

gah i'm blabbering, it was wierd, i had a new sensation, i'm writing about it in my live journal while i should be doing things at work. at least that part of me hasn't changed right? (like thats a good thing)

so the rest of it goes like this. The tangible things, the things that i can see changing, rather then feel... I think i'm finally chilling out. Being alone and on my own has been very unsettling. Some times i walk around the house confused cause i don't know where i put something, cuase i'm not comforable with the space yet. But its getting better. it is and i should be back to work...
over and out...