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I'm feeling really down right now, and I hate that I don't know exactly what is going on with Antoine at this very moment. Apparently he is at HoJo's with Dadren and Jasper, and that knowledge alone isn't doing anything to ease my worries. He told me they were smokin' and gettin' fucked up, and i just hope that he doesn't do anything stupid. I'm trying really hard to trust him, but I really don't know if I can, because if he thinks I'm cheating, I can't help but think that he'll cheat because he thinks I am. I know that's hypocritical, but Antoine's mind works in stupid ways. He swore up and down to me that he would never cheat and I believed him them, but I don't know about now. I just wish he would call and check in or something, because he said he would, and he never did, and he ALWAYS does and that's making my worry that much worse. I don'tt even want to think about what's going on at the hotel, but I can't HELP it...

All that thinking of Antoine is making my head and my heart hurt. Ashlee's aunt got married today, but I couldn't go to the wedding because of the Cedar v. Central game, which, by the way, WE WON! Take THAT Chee-Kay, Mee-Chee, and Dan-Nee. West SIDE!

No word on the repairability of my car, and I won't be able to find out about it until Monday or Tuesday. :'(

Chris broke up with his girlfriend because of me...I don't know how to feel about this.

And on a final note...I would KILL for an iPod...so if anyone knows someone... ;-p

much luv,
Young Keezy