There's a funeral tomorrow...
Couldn’t sleep last night. Had a few things on my mind, actually just one thing constantly on my mind. After some prayer and talking to a friend, I was finally able to get rest. This morning I woke up at about 2:40 something, and realized this is not going to happen, so I woke up at about 7 something and began my day. My mom called me this morning and asked how I was doing, I nearly cried and wanted to just break down and tell her, but for those of you who know, I do not get good reception in my room. So I told her to call my room, but she didn’t know my number and I lost connection. Its okay, I had to call up a friend pick them up, and go to Elmshaven (the current church that I am doing my intern/extern at). This is hard, making all your first really memorable memories with someone, and than you don’t celebrate it with them again. ::sigh:: Nearly everyone noticed that the friend that I brought last time was not with me. During pastoral prayer, the lady, and not to my noticing I guess prayed for a long time. But I was praying, and when it was done my friend asked if I was crying and I couldn't lie…mi miss kita. I figured I would throw in a little side note and if you ever read this, the church members asked about you…
After the service as I was coming back from the church library and heading to potluck the pastor stopped me and told me that “there is a funeral service tomorrow.” One of the church members passed away this week. So I will be they’re tomorrow at one for the service and I will try to make it to the eleven o’clock burial service on Monday. Please pray for me, this is hard. But it must be really hard for my friend...
After church I came back to my room and couldn’t sleep. I went to lighthouse ministries, and than remembered that last time you had wanted to go and we didn’t. When I came back, I realized that I didn't have anyone to eat with, and now here I am at the end of my day, trying to finish some homework, my eyes are shot, my brain is tired, my body wants to give up, and if you could only know what my heart beat is like… here I am at the end of it all.
Lord why am I here? I want to go back, back into time and just take this away. Am I the one really saying that? Lord to tell you the truth, I don’t want to go back, the truth is I just want to go forward, but I want to do it right, I can’t mess this one up, I sincerely believe that you have shown me that this is it. Lord please comforts not just me, but also my friend. Lord give us strength to overcome this, because I know that if we do this will be so much more powerful. Lord please let me know that they care about me just as much as I care about them. Let me know that they are safe. Let me know that you have them in your arms. Let me know that you are our guide and we are filled with faith to follow in your footsteps. Please Lord, please…give us hope.
“May the Lord watch between me and thee, when we are absent one from another."
PS - pray about the J. Crew thing, I applied for a job, had the interview, and find out this week whether I got it or not, I need it, but God will lead...
After the service as I was coming back from the church library and heading to potluck the pastor stopped me and told me that “there is a funeral service tomorrow.” One of the church members passed away this week. So I will be they’re tomorrow at one for the service and I will try to make it to the eleven o’clock burial service on Monday. Please pray for me, this is hard. But it must be really hard for my friend...
After church I came back to my room and couldn’t sleep. I went to lighthouse ministries, and than remembered that last time you had wanted to go and we didn’t. When I came back, I realized that I didn't have anyone to eat with, and now here I am at the end of my day, trying to finish some homework, my eyes are shot, my brain is tired, my body wants to give up, and if you could only know what my heart beat is like… here I am at the end of it all.
Lord why am I here? I want to go back, back into time and just take this away. Am I the one really saying that? Lord to tell you the truth, I don’t want to go back, the truth is I just want to go forward, but I want to do it right, I can’t mess this one up, I sincerely believe that you have shown me that this is it. Lord please comforts not just me, but also my friend. Lord give us strength to overcome this, because I know that if we do this will be so much more powerful. Lord please let me know that they care about me just as much as I care about them. Let me know that they are safe. Let me know that you have them in your arms. Let me know that you are our guide and we are filled with faith to follow in your footsteps. Please Lord, please…give us hope.
“May the Lord watch between me and thee, when we are absent one from another."
PS - pray about the J. Crew thing, I applied for a job, had the interview, and find out this week whether I got it or not, I need it, but God will lead...