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last night was good and blah at the same time..idk i felt some things that i never have before and its making me scared again..lyke..do i really wanna do this again? do i really wanna go through being lyke this..im just afraid of getting hurt.. again..because the last time, i havent really healed..and idk..i have a problem with expressing how i feel, always have esp if its really emotional to me..the only thing ive been able to do is write but still some people dont get me..i dont blame them..some people just dont take the time to get to know me..which i need because i cant be this open person..but why should they take the time..its just me..idk what im gonna do though..i really need to talk to this person but i dont know how..and im afraid ill just push them away...that always seems to happen..and then ill just try and forget bout it but then i let it just sit in my chest..and rot