She said I'll throw myself away; they're just photos after all.
Reflecting on the influence the BDSM community has had on my life -- it was so much more stress free before I met any of them.
Even the non romantic relationships, I absolutely feel ghosted, used and overlooked by these people. They don't talk to you, or hang out with you unless they need something, and on the off chance they do, it is clearly a one sided friendship. Constantly being interrupted, talked over, and especially Dom/mmes will sit there for literally hours telling stories about their lives and love lives for whatever goddamn reason I can never understand, and expect you to sit there, enthralled by them, and not get a fucking word in. It's so invalidating and not to mention BORING. Like, I'm a Domly Dom/me and you have to sit here like one of my subjects (as I consider myself royalty) and listen to me boast about myself for literally hours. Fuckkkkk offffffff.
Last year I was seeing someone (he hates me now or something, possibly there is something going on here with the community and people lying to one another, I don't really know, but anyway) and it was going nicely, and was stress free and honestly made me feel so content, relaxed and happy. I've never felt so stress free and happy than when I was around this man -- then, my friends/his friends find out. I'm getting *weekly*, sometimes DAILY harassment about where this relationship is going, what we're doing, have I had a "talk" with him, what kind of bdsm things we do, etc. I found myself being intimate with him, the most amazing intimacy I've ever felt with anyone, and bursting into tears because I felt so overwhelmed by all this shit going on in the background.
And yeah you read that correctly, people asking about our sex life!! Why do they think this is OK? Well the entire community is based on how they like to fuck people, let's face it, so they are very open, and very NOSY about what everyone else is doing with their fucking genitals. I never used to be a prude, I swear to Hecate, but lately I am so repulsed by all the fucking OVERSHARING. I don't care that you enjoy eating ass, I don't care how good you think you are at edging and sucking cock, I don't care that you get your friends to take pictures of your asshole for only fans, I don't care that you'll eat a pussy that's having its period,I don't care that you like being fucked in the asshole. ENOUGH.
I don't think I ever truly fitted in here. I think I met someone years ago who was a total piece of shit and basically abused and assaulted me under the cover of bdsm and then, to make myself feel better, I told myself, "well at least I have this nice community of friends now". Probably a fucking trauma response honestly, because these people were never my fucking friends.
Even the non romantic relationships, I absolutely feel ghosted, used and overlooked by these people. They don't talk to you, or hang out with you unless they need something, and on the off chance they do, it is clearly a one sided friendship. Constantly being interrupted, talked over, and especially Dom/mmes will sit there for literally hours telling stories about their lives and love lives for whatever goddamn reason I can never understand, and expect you to sit there, enthralled by them, and not get a fucking word in. It's so invalidating and not to mention BORING. Like, I'm a Domly Dom/me and you have to sit here like one of my subjects (as I consider myself royalty) and listen to me boast about myself for literally hours. Fuckkkkk offffffff.
Last year I was seeing someone (he hates me now or something, possibly there is something going on here with the community and people lying to one another, I don't really know, but anyway) and it was going nicely, and was stress free and honestly made me feel so content, relaxed and happy. I've never felt so stress free and happy than when I was around this man -- then, my friends/his friends find out. I'm getting *weekly*, sometimes DAILY harassment about where this relationship is going, what we're doing, have I had a "talk" with him, what kind of bdsm things we do, etc. I found myself being intimate with him, the most amazing intimacy I've ever felt with anyone, and bursting into tears because I felt so overwhelmed by all this shit going on in the background.
And yeah you read that correctly, people asking about our sex life!! Why do they think this is OK? Well the entire community is based on how they like to fuck people, let's face it, so they are very open, and very NOSY about what everyone else is doing with their fucking genitals. I never used to be a prude, I swear to Hecate, but lately I am so repulsed by all the fucking OVERSHARING. I don't care that you enjoy eating ass, I don't care how good you think you are at edging and sucking cock, I don't care that you get your friends to take pictures of your asshole for only fans, I don't care that you'll eat a pussy that's having its period,I don't care that you like being fucked in the asshole. ENOUGH.
I don't think I ever truly fitted in here. I think I met someone years ago who was a total piece of shit and basically abused and assaulted me under the cover of bdsm and then, to make myself feel better, I told myself, "well at least I have this nice community of friends now". Probably a fucking trauma response honestly, because these people were never my fucking friends.