yea..about that....
so a lot has happened since the last time i wrote in here...but i'm only gonna talk about the things that matter the most to me. I've been single for 5 months now...and to be completely honest with you..i'm not quite sure how i feel about it..there are two guys out there that i care a lot about...one, at least i thought, felt the same about me, until i find out a few days ago that he is dating someone...never once said to me anything to me about it...idk...i guess it was just mixed signals that i was getting..oh well...on to the next one...this guy..let me tell you..he is amazing..i haven't had it easy the past couple of weeks..school has been stressing me out...the only way i have been able to get through it is because of him...he is always there whenever i need someone to talk to, and i can always count on him to be there to cheer me up when i'm feeling down..i haven't had that kind of guy around since chris...and it kinda scares me...i'm scared to get close to him cause the last time this happened..i wounded up getting my heart broken not once..but twice...i just don't think i can go through with that again. Its kinda scary...but i'm learning to get over my fear...i'm just gonna watch my every move...i'm gonna do my best not to get hurt again...alright..i don't know...everything is just so confusing...i just wish someone would send me a sign right about now..i really could use one...