Officially Anti-Social/ Anthrocon
After a few airport screw ups I have finally returned home after Anthrocon. It was great to room with and meet/ re-meet some of my good long distance friends. However, after 4 cons of experience I have realized that I am a highly antisocial person. The reason I go to cons is to meet with people I chat with online, or have previously met with the similar interest of furry, and to fursuit.
Now, in a small setting I am more then happy to chat with these people as long as they seem slightly amused. Yet at large cons I am always intimidated that the friends I am meeting also have others they would like to seek out within the con. For that reason I find that I normally cut conversations short and eventually just disappear.
A second annoying habit I have around conventions is I feel terribly uncomfortable with my friends when they are surrounded by people I have never met. I am not entirely sure what makes me feel this way but even when introduced I don't feel like I fit in. My hypothesis is that they are normally talking amongst themselves or with our mutual friend and I feel that it would be rude or I would say something silly if I were to attempt to enter the conversation. Because of this I am normally not seen in large room parties as it is not very fun to sit around in the corner, so I eventually just slink away.
Why I have both of these quirks is beyond me. I am comfortable talking to large crowds. Yet in those situations I am attended to. I guess my shyness stems from my lack of assertiveness to gain others attention. I also have never felt anxious meeting new people in a small group I am more then happy to talk to them and learn about them. But I find that to happen because I normally break awkward silences or they engage instead of talking to their familiar friend.
Anyhow I did have a great time around AC, Fursuiting was great. I think I just wanted to justify some of my actions if people were wondering why I seemed to avoid or leave during room parties. I don't really have any post con depressing but I do feel a bit of bitterness towards myself for yet again being to shy and nervous to spend as much time with my friends as I would have liked.
=D My new solution is to meet a few more people online then it is less likely I will be in a room with strangers reducing the probability that I will be a downer and leave. I am always more then happy to meet new friends I just like it to happen in a smaller setting. =D so we will see how those work out in the future!
Tally
Now, in a small setting I am more then happy to chat with these people as long as they seem slightly amused. Yet at large cons I am always intimidated that the friends I am meeting also have others they would like to seek out within the con. For that reason I find that I normally cut conversations short and eventually just disappear.
A second annoying habit I have around conventions is I feel terribly uncomfortable with my friends when they are surrounded by people I have never met. I am not entirely sure what makes me feel this way but even when introduced I don't feel like I fit in. My hypothesis is that they are normally talking amongst themselves or with our mutual friend and I feel that it would be rude or I would say something silly if I were to attempt to enter the conversation. Because of this I am normally not seen in large room parties as it is not very fun to sit around in the corner, so I eventually just slink away.
Why I have both of these quirks is beyond me. I am comfortable talking to large crowds. Yet in those situations I am attended to. I guess my shyness stems from my lack of assertiveness to gain others attention. I also have never felt anxious meeting new people in a small group I am more then happy to talk to them and learn about them. But I find that to happen because I normally break awkward silences or they engage instead of talking to their familiar friend.
Anyhow I did have a great time around AC, Fursuiting was great. I think I just wanted to justify some of my actions if people were wondering why I seemed to avoid or leave during room parties. I don't really have any post con depressing but I do feel a bit of bitterness towards myself for yet again being to shy and nervous to spend as much time with my friends as I would have liked.
=D My new solution is to meet a few more people online then it is less likely I will be in a room with strangers reducing the probability that I will be a downer and leave. I am always more then happy to meet new friends I just like it to happen in a smaller setting. =D so we will see how those work out in the future!
Tally