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my land lady has used my dog as a reason to enforce more rules and get me in trouble all week. i feel like a little kid. are dogs just plain trouble?! and she has false proof of bruno doing this wrong, and that wrong, and when i call her out on it, she goes through this, 'i'm not trying to blame...and i know you're trying to defend...' routine that just points the guilt every which way and none of the problems are solved. suddenly he has to stay outside as soon as we reinforce the fencing in the pen (for 2 of her dogs). and she claims he's marking his territory EVERYWHERE when he's not. and she puts the blame on him because he's a male dog and hers are female and thinks i abuse him because he was 'crying all last night' NO HE WASNT i was home, and heard nothing, and btw, he's in my room not hers.
she keeps claiming certain rules are 'part of the agreement' which, btw i cannot find. and that's kinda funny because 3 weeks ago i could've swore my room had been ransacked.
jason's about to move here next month and first whe was delighted to rent out another room (an extra $500 to her) but now keeps asking 'why does he want to move here' and also seems irritated by my presence.
and when i went downstairs, all of a sudden the living room is blockd off, not only bruno-proofing it, but jessica-proofing. i thought it was a very immature--especially for a woman who claims to talk things out when there's a problem.. NO she put a sticky note with a nasty letter saying this area is private, 'like in the agreement' WHAT AGREEMENT?! most of the time i never agreed to heard any of these rules and she tags on these things, almost like a threat!
generalizing, it's better than my week at charles and ashe's, because i feel comfortable sleeping at night.. because i always had this anxiety since they've both worked at Godfathers' (charles is a doorman there), that they'd expect me to walk around naked with them or something and have a threesome because 'we know each other'....
but now i feel very sad. my dog would be better off outside, but again, someone is taking over my dog. telling me what he's done, when they wouldn't know that he did unless they supervised him at all times, which she doesnt.
and to tag onto that, my dog's been a brat lately and suddenly acting like i'm a piece of shit too.
so i have two choices, put my dog out in the rain, and make him hate me even more,
or find him a new home where he forgets all about me.
she keeps claiming certain rules are 'part of the agreement' which, btw i cannot find. and that's kinda funny because 3 weeks ago i could've swore my room had been ransacked.
jason's about to move here next month and first whe was delighted to rent out another room (an extra $500 to her) but now keeps asking 'why does he want to move here' and also seems irritated by my presence.
and when i went downstairs, all of a sudden the living room is blockd off, not only bruno-proofing it, but jessica-proofing. i thought it was a very immature--especially for a woman who claims to talk things out when there's a problem.. NO she put a sticky note with a nasty letter saying this area is private, 'like in the agreement' WHAT AGREEMENT?! most of the time i never agreed to heard any of these rules and she tags on these things, almost like a threat!
generalizing, it's better than my week at charles and ashe's, because i feel comfortable sleeping at night.. because i always had this anxiety since they've both worked at Godfathers' (charles is a doorman there), that they'd expect me to walk around naked with them or something and have a threesome because 'we know each other'....
but now i feel very sad. my dog would be better off outside, but again, someone is taking over my dog. telling me what he's done, when they wouldn't know that he did unless they supervised him at all times, which she doesnt.
and to tag onto that, my dog's been a brat lately and suddenly acting like i'm a piece of shit too.
so i have two choices, put my dog out in the rain, and make him hate me even more,
or find him a new home where he forgets all about me.