rant about guys.....as usual
ok so as usual it has been awhile since i have written.....actually i wrote earlier, like fri, but the stupid computer screwed up and it erased it all....w/e....so i actually have alot to tell about this past weekend but i just do highlights....so i went to my house and then to mikes house....he told me his parents really like me alot and i went to church with him and his parents...yeah i know its amazing, me in church, and his whole church loved me...like even the minister called me out during his sermon ...i was like uh thanks...so it was an amazingly fun weekend and we went shopping today and i bought some fun stuff ....
anyway....so as usual i am so confused....so obviously my feelings for mike are still there i mean we had a wonderful weekend together just me and him but now im back and there is this other guy and i really really like him ...like a bunch.....hes funny and smart and so much fun to hang out with not to mention really cute (you know me and my soft spot for guys with dark curly hair and green eyes hehe) and sometimes i feel like im just stringing him along but i suppose to really string someone along you have to not like them at all but i do like this guy alot.....but i still love mike ugh this is so bad.....i am so afraid of trying to have a real relationship with him (the other guy not mike) b/c i really think i want to have one but im afraid to get closer to him.....ugh i was so afraid this was going to happen! i thought for sure i couldnt find anyone like mike....but now....then again maybe im getting ahead of myself....maybe ill find something that makes us not as compatible as i think we are....ugh....and now im doing that thing where i think too much....damn it....if anyone has advice that would be great cuz i have no idea what i want/need to do.....
anyway....so as usual i am so confused....so obviously my feelings for mike are still there i mean we had a wonderful weekend together just me and him but now im back and there is this other guy and i really really like him ...like a bunch.....hes funny and smart and so much fun to hang out with not to mention really cute (you know me and my soft spot for guys with dark curly hair and green eyes hehe) and sometimes i feel like im just stringing him along but i suppose to really string someone along you have to not like them at all but i do like this guy alot.....but i still love mike ugh this is so bad.....i am so afraid of trying to have a real relationship with him (the other guy not mike) b/c i really think i want to have one but im afraid to get closer to him.....ugh i was so afraid this was going to happen! i thought for sure i couldnt find anyone like mike....but now....then again maybe im getting ahead of myself....maybe ill find something that makes us not as compatible as i think we are....ugh....and now im doing that thing where i think too much....damn it....if anyone has advice that would be great cuz i have no idea what i want/need to do.....