Fun FUn
So... My girl angela introduced me to Southern Comfort.. I cant get too attatched, or Ill become a drunk.. Lol. Noone likes a drunk. I don't anyways.
So Im talkin to Marissa online... And I miss being friends with her, seeing her, hanging out with her. We had so many awesome times... I actually miss her more than any other friends "lost". We used to cut school together, and go down the street just so I could see my "friends". Hahaha. What fun times.. we really aroused some "fans". Those were the old days...
Now, Ive been dating someone for 3 years, and Im so confused. Its funny how you can love that certain somebody with all your heart, and it only takes one person to walk into your life, and make you second guess things. I have had such a great time with everyone that had walked down my path during life, and the past week has got me feeling so lost. Sometimes I wonder what would have been, when might have been. But if somethine "had been" what "could have been", then I would stand a chance of never meeting Jon, and never having that person back in my life. I really just want to crunch myself up into a tight little ball, and cry. I havent done that in so long, but right now i feel the ened to. I just want to cry....
On a different note, I saw Allison at the mall a few days ago. All these old people that always meant so much to me are just casually strolling back into my life and my heart. I really can't say too much about anyone or anything else, because that is just how things get started... but I am feeling so drawn towards these people I see... I havent been this confused in such a long time.
I feel achamed that I would even feel this way. I really do. Something you just can't help. I need answers, and I can't find them. *tears*
So Im talkin to Marissa online... And I miss being friends with her, seeing her, hanging out with her. We had so many awesome times... I actually miss her more than any other friends "lost". We used to cut school together, and go down the street just so I could see my "friends". Hahaha. What fun times.. we really aroused some "fans". Those were the old days...
Now, Ive been dating someone for 3 years, and Im so confused. Its funny how you can love that certain somebody with all your heart, and it only takes one person to walk into your life, and make you second guess things. I have had such a great time with everyone that had walked down my path during life, and the past week has got me feeling so lost. Sometimes I wonder what would have been, when might have been. But if somethine "had been" what "could have been", then I would stand a chance of never meeting Jon, and never having that person back in my life. I really just want to crunch myself up into a tight little ball, and cry. I havent done that in so long, but right now i feel the ened to. I just want to cry....
On a different note, I saw Allison at the mall a few days ago. All these old people that always meant so much to me are just casually strolling back into my life and my heart. I really can't say too much about anyone or anything else, because that is just how things get started... but I am feeling so drawn towards these people I see... I havent been this confused in such a long time.
I feel achamed that I would even feel this way. I really do. Something you just can't help. I need answers, and I can't find them. *tears*