Again
Title: Again
Length: One-shot
Pairing: GDYB
Rating: PG13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Jiyong keeps on ignoring Youngbae. Again and again.
Warning!!! this is a complete fail, people!
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Like every morning I woke up, this time wasn’t an exception. I was in your room again, and as always, I was awaken by the rays of sunlight coming from your window.
I rolled on my side, like I always did, to check if you were still there, and I was right. I was alone. Again. I sighed and blinked many times trying to push back my tears that were forming in my eyes.
You left again without telling me. It wasn’t really strange, except for the fact that it was Sunday and the both of us had a day off. It had been a while since we got the last break from our schedule. Shouldn’t we spend it together, Ji?
The whole situation wasn’t really new to me. At night, we’d cuddle with each other till we fell asleep then I’d wake up finding myself alone every morning cause you were already off to somewhere and I didn’t think I really wanted to know where and who was with you. This routine went on for a couple of months now. What’s your excuse this time, Ji? Shopping? Hanging out with friends? Drinking?
You were hurting me. While you were flirting around, did you ever think of me, too?
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I was standing next to Daesung when I glanced and saw you playing with Seungri again. I shouldn’t be surprised cause you were always like that to everyone. Well, except me.
You barely came my way when we were together like that. Was I really that boring to talk with? Should I be more mischievous like Maknae? Or be a dork like Tabi hyung? Or a mood maker like Daesung? Should I change myself just to get some of your attention, Ji? Tell me, cause you knew, I would.
I was jealous and it was tearing me apart. I was supposed to be your best friend, your boyfriend, but why did I feel like I was not? Have you ever thought of looking at me, too? I was just right here. Why couldn’t I play with you, too?
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“Break up with him, Bae.” Tabi hyung patted my shoulder, but I just smiled at him. Cause really, what should I do? I couldn’t call it off. I just couldn’t and I didn’t want to. Cause I loved you. So fucking much.
“He doesn’t deserve you, hyung. Find someone else.” Daesung once whispered when he caught me watching you while you were flirting with Dara noona. Again.
I smiled bitterly at him and walked away. How did they expect me to leave you? You are my life.
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I lay here in my bed as I was staring at my phone’s wallpaper. It was a picture of the two of us when we were still trainees. Back then, our life was a lot easier. True, we had to go through numerous stages of our difficult trainee life, but there were certainly no cameras, no flirty girls or boys, no jealousies. No broken hearts. I sighed at the thought. I really missed you, Ji.
Just as I rolled on my side, facing my left, to sleep, someone walked in. I didn’t have to guess who it was as I smelled the sweet scent of your shampoo. Besides, no one else could go inside my room without knocking first. I didn’t know why, but I kept silent and pretended that I was already fast asleep.
You crawled in my bed and settled on my side. You hugged me from behind and pulled me closer. I still didn’t say a word even if I felt my heart jumped a bit when you kissed the back of my neck. And I was sure that you knew I was still awake but you didn't say a word. I thought you’d be fast asleep as soon as your head touched the pillow, cause you were always like that, but I was wrong. I heard your sobs and felt my shirt got wet. I was a bit surprised and worried at the same time so I turned around. My room was dark but I could still see you, thanks to the bit of lights coming from the moon outsied my window. You had always been the cry baby and I was the one who had to calm you down but your eyes caught me off guard. They were sad and full of emotions I couldn’t really understand. I cupped your face and kissed away your tears. You snuggled closer and I kissed your forehead, as if saying, No matter what, I’ll always be here to wipe away your tears, but I'm begging you not to cry.
You took a deep breath as you caught my eyes and confessed. “Bae, I know I’m hurting you and believe me, I’m sorry. I’m just like this cause I want you to see that if you ever try to leave me, I could get another one easily. But I can't. You’re always in my mind. Whenever I fool around with someone else, I secretly wish that it was you. When I go around with my friends, I always think about you. What you’re doing…. What you’re wearing… Who’s with you… I love you and it will always be you. I'm so afraid to lose you. I won't flirt again, Bae, just stay with me please. I… I w-”
“Sssshhhhhh……” I kissed your forehead again, silently telling you, I know, baby. I know.
You kissed my lips and hugged me tightly, never letting go. And I know, it was your silent wish, Please don’t leave me.
I won’t. You know I won’t.
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A/N: i know this sucks but i can't help it! i needed to write something about them or else... huhuhuhuhu..
once i found a better solution about my problem with Dara, i'll update my other 2 fics.. so sorry bout that.. T.T
Length: One-shot
Pairing: GDYB
Rating: PG13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Jiyong keeps on ignoring Youngbae. Again and again.
Warning!!! this is a complete fail, people!
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Like every morning I woke up, this time wasn’t an exception. I was in your room again, and as always, I was awaken by the rays of sunlight coming from your window.
I rolled on my side, like I always did, to check if you were still there, and I was right. I was alone. Again. I sighed and blinked many times trying to push back my tears that were forming in my eyes.
You left again without telling me. It wasn’t really strange, except for the fact that it was Sunday and the both of us had a day off. It had been a while since we got the last break from our schedule. Shouldn’t we spend it together, Ji?
The whole situation wasn’t really new to me. At night, we’d cuddle with each other till we fell asleep then I’d wake up finding myself alone every morning cause you were already off to somewhere and I didn’t think I really wanted to know where and who was with you. This routine went on for a couple of months now. What’s your excuse this time, Ji? Shopping? Hanging out with friends? Drinking?
You were hurting me. While you were flirting around, did you ever think of me, too?
-----
I was standing next to Daesung when I glanced and saw you playing with Seungri again. I shouldn’t be surprised cause you were always like that to everyone. Well, except me.
You barely came my way when we were together like that. Was I really that boring to talk with? Should I be more mischievous like Maknae? Or be a dork like Tabi hyung? Or a mood maker like Daesung? Should I change myself just to get some of your attention, Ji? Tell me, cause you knew, I would.
I was jealous and it was tearing me apart. I was supposed to be your best friend, your boyfriend, but why did I feel like I was not? Have you ever thought of looking at me, too? I was just right here. Why couldn’t I play with you, too?
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“Break up with him, Bae.” Tabi hyung patted my shoulder, but I just smiled at him. Cause really, what should I do? I couldn’t call it off. I just couldn’t and I didn’t want to. Cause I loved you. So fucking much.
“He doesn’t deserve you, hyung. Find someone else.” Daesung once whispered when he caught me watching you while you were flirting with Dara noona. Again.
I smiled bitterly at him and walked away. How did they expect me to leave you? You are my life.
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I lay here in my bed as I was staring at my phone’s wallpaper. It was a picture of the two of us when we were still trainees. Back then, our life was a lot easier. True, we had to go through numerous stages of our difficult trainee life, but there were certainly no cameras, no flirty girls or boys, no jealousies. No broken hearts. I sighed at the thought. I really missed you, Ji.
Just as I rolled on my side, facing my left, to sleep, someone walked in. I didn’t have to guess who it was as I smelled the sweet scent of your shampoo. Besides, no one else could go inside my room without knocking first. I didn’t know why, but I kept silent and pretended that I was already fast asleep.
You crawled in my bed and settled on my side. You hugged me from behind and pulled me closer. I still didn’t say a word even if I felt my heart jumped a bit when you kissed the back of my neck. And I was sure that you knew I was still awake but you didn't say a word. I thought you’d be fast asleep as soon as your head touched the pillow, cause you were always like that, but I was wrong. I heard your sobs and felt my shirt got wet. I was a bit surprised and worried at the same time so I turned around. My room was dark but I could still see you, thanks to the bit of lights coming from the moon outsied my window. You had always been the cry baby and I was the one who had to calm you down but your eyes caught me off guard. They were sad and full of emotions I couldn’t really understand. I cupped your face and kissed away your tears. You snuggled closer and I kissed your forehead, as if saying, No matter what, I’ll always be here to wipe away your tears, but I'm begging you not to cry.
You took a deep breath as you caught my eyes and confessed. “Bae, I know I’m hurting you and believe me, I’m sorry. I’m just like this cause I want you to see that if you ever try to leave me, I could get another one easily. But I can't. You’re always in my mind. Whenever I fool around with someone else, I secretly wish that it was you. When I go around with my friends, I always think about you. What you’re doing…. What you’re wearing… Who’s with you… I love you and it will always be you. I'm so afraid to lose you. I won't flirt again, Bae, just stay with me please. I… I w-”
“Sssshhhhhh……” I kissed your forehead again, silently telling you, I know, baby. I know.
You kissed my lips and hugged me tightly, never letting go. And I know, it was your silent wish, Please don’t leave me.
I won’t. You know I won’t.
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A/N: i know this sucks but i can't help it! i needed to write something about them or else... huhuhuhuhu..
once i found a better solution about my problem with Dara, i'll update my other 2 fics.. so sorry bout that.. T.T