D
Lately I've realized that I've been in and out of D mode. I guess its not really 'out' but rather, Very D or just D. There's nothing much to look forward to in this hole. I really don't know what I want out of life, I am never satisfied. I curse at the slightest thing and I have little to no response to the things going around me. I want to break free from this , but I just don't know how. Everything seems to just pass by in a blur . I have no clue where I'm heading . I miss being happy and being there to help lift someone's spirits. If I had a chance to change one thing in my life, that would be you. Get out of it. Forget about how life is unfair. Good people die and assholes live. Thats the way things work. Get over it. I can't guarantee instant happiness with your absence, but I can firmly say that a piece of our lives will be free. Free from you and your fucking ways. We are all better off without you and vice versa. Why do I feel so alone. There are lots of people around me and yet I never feel their presence.
I supposed I have made an improvement on my inner strength. I completed that whole paragraph without shedding a single tear. Going through all that asperity has actually molded me into a stronger person. That being said, a part of me is desensitized whenever I get through shit. I am trying not to be D , its working but I'm not exactly h either, its sort of like a neutral state which still sucks . I don't know what lies ahead in the near or distant future. Whether things will look up or not. Whatever it is, I just know that I'll be okay. I always am.
oh yeah , just a quick shout out, Happy 23rd Birthday Jay Park . I know that you'll do well in everything. I'm sure you know that the guys will continue to support you and of course, fans too. We all want the best for you and I hope you're happy with where you are now. That is the most important thing. I love [not in a sick way] and respect you for coming out solid as ever after going to hell and back. I'm sure AOM will win ABDC if you guys enter it. Can't wait to see all your new projects. Once again , Happy Birthday ! Park Jay Beom Fighting!
I supposed I have made an improvement on my inner strength. I completed that whole paragraph without shedding a single tear. Going through all that asperity has actually molded me into a stronger person. That being said, a part of me is desensitized whenever I get through shit. I am trying not to be D , its working but I'm not exactly h either, its sort of like a neutral state which still sucks . I don't know what lies ahead in the near or distant future. Whether things will look up or not. Whatever it is, I just know that I'll be okay. I always am.
oh yeah , just a quick shout out, Happy 23rd Birthday Jay Park . I know that you'll do well in everything. I'm sure you know that the guys will continue to support you and of course, fans too. We all want the best for you and I hope you're happy with where you are now. That is the most important thing. I love [not in a sick way] and respect you for coming out solid as ever after going to hell and back. I'm sure AOM will win ABDC if you guys enter it. Can't wait to see all your new projects. Once again , Happy Birthday ! Park Jay Beom Fighting!